Bethany's Indian Adventure

Mungeli

2008-08-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

I slept my first afternoon in Mungeli. I didn't get much sleep on the overnight train (thank you creepy staring guy!), so I crashed as soon as I arrived at the Henrys'. Anil was returning form a court case deposition in Delhi, so Terry and I had a late dinner around 10 pm (turns out that 10 pm is quite early for dinner in the Henry household. Several nights we sat down for dinner at midnight).

It became clear the following morning that my cough was more than my lungs purging Kolkata's pollution... I was sick... again! I stared an antibiotic straight away. I REFUSED to spend my last week in India ill!

I went to morning prayers (in Hindi) and noticed that the men and women were sitting in different sides of the chapel (apparently that's how it's done in that region of the country... Alexander Campbell would be so proud!). After prayers, I took a tour of the hospital with Anil. I went into the ICU, the recovery ward, the women's ward, and the private rooms. I essentially followed Anil on his morning rounds and he explained all the cases to me. The thing about this hospital is that hardly anyone comes to the proper doctor unless it's dire (as the local medicine 'quacks', as Anil lovingly calls them, are the first, yet usually insufficient, treatment choice). Many of the cases could have been an easy five day antibiotic treatment, but rather, is now at the stage where a major surgery is the only option. There are also cases like a couple who are currently healing in the hospital. They got into a fight, so the wife doused herself in kerosene and set herself on fire over the same of the argument. At some point, the husband decided to help and also got severely burned. There are certain cultural practices, whether it be superstitious magic medicine or extreme acts of martyrdom or anything in between that make proper medical practice in this place very difficult at times. People respect the doctors, that is abundantly clear, but it is often only when their loved one is near death that the respect motivates action.

Also, entire families stay with the ill in the hospital. The looks of concern on their faces is heartbreaking. Especially now, during the harvesting season, it is a great sacrifice to leave back-breaking and meagerly paying jobs to stay at the bedside of a loved one. Faces, prematurely aged by poverty, are etched with deep creases and tired expressions. Now their eyes are also filled with concern as well as exhaustion. This is not a full service hospital like in the States. Nurses are not available to bathe you or bring you water. A cooking staff does not prepare a tray of food to be delivered to you bed. It is necessary that a family member remain to give a patient basic assistance. There is no such thing as visiting hours' here.

After rounds, I headed to the CNI school that is run by the hospital. The principal gave me a tour and the children were incredible! every time I walked into a room, they all stood and said, 'Hello Ma'am' or 'Good morning Ma'am'. The following day was Independence Day in India and they were all preparing for a special show (I returned for the actual performance the following day and was the 'guest of honor'). I watched practice and snapped a few photos before heading back to the hospital.

I napped much of the afternoon (stupid cough!) and accepted Anil's offer to stand in on a surgery in the OT. I watched a hysterectomy (so freaking cool!) that afternoon and three more surgeries the following day. The surgeons were always very good about calling me over to see exactly what they were doing and why ('See the tear in his stomach here? We are stitching it up.' or 'Notice the fluid around the kidney? We've got to stop the oozing.'). They also included me in the pre-examinations ('see this blotch here on the sonogram? She is probably in the late stages of cancer. We'll take a biopsy to be sure.')

I must say that I am personally quite impressed by my own decorum as medical profession. I have zero desire to become a surgeon, but I was fairly surprised that I only had to leave the room once during my entire four days at the hospital. I really am more capable than I thought!

There are three young doctors here as well: 2 surgeons and a dentist. The dentist is 24 and was very excited to hear that I was his age (the other two are in their late twenties, so he feels like a baby in comparison). Every night I was there, the younger doctors came over to the Henrys' to watch movies, eat dinner and hang out. We all had such a blast, and by the end of it I was beginning to get some of the medical jokes they always tell!

I wish I could have stayed longer -- as it was, I extended my stay by an extra day -- but I had to head to Delhi as I'm leaving in three days. Thing's didn't work out to meet up with Julien and Youssef (they went AWOL in Nepal for a few weeks), but I want to see the Taj Mahal before leaving India and it's near Delhi. I booked a stupid-expensive four-star hotel for the last four nights. Its near some really cool Delhi sites, so I will be able to keep myself entertained. Right... not Mungeli...

It was interesting while in Mungeli. Anil laughed a lot at my fondness for Kolkata, because everyone from the country finds it over crowded and generally disgusting with pollution and waste; however, those who live in the city love it. I am one of them! I welcomed the trip to the countryside -- they are doing incredible work in Mungeli (Global Ministries should be honored to have a connection with Anil and Teresa Henry) -- but my heart is in the City of Joy. I adore Kolkata (as you all know by now). I cannot believe that I am gone from Kolkata and will leave India on Friday. I am not ready for that. I am certain that saying goodbye to my life in Kolkata was the most difficult part of this process, but I am no sure that it has actually registered that I am going to be in the States on Saturday... I am soooo not ready for that!

The Trek from Kolkata to Mungeli

2008-08-19T06:37:00.000-07:00

I arrived in Mungeli on Wednesday morning of last week after an absolutely absurd overnight train from Kolkata to Bilaspur. I suppose I will begin from my last day in Kolkata, since it's been a while...

I decided to pack the night before so that I could spend most of my time going through my normal daily Kolkata ritual (it seemed very important to squeeze every ounce out of my life there). I even set my alarm for a very early 8 am as to get the basic 'I'm leaving' errands out of the way. Well, I woke up at 9:30, needed to shower DESPERATELY, and finally hailed a cab for the DHL couriers office around 10:30. Kolkata streets are all one way, but change directions midday (so, for example, in the morning a traffic flow will be northward and in the afternoon the same street will flow southwardly). I passed the DHL office everyday on my way to Park Street, so I knew I'd see the office. Except, I always catch an afternoon cab... my 22 rupee ride turned into a 100 rupee fair and I still had to call Phillip Peacock to five the cabbie directions (my Bengali was not sufficient to direct him to an unknown location). I still had to walk about 15 minutes, even then, before I found a different DHL office to mail my box home.

The walk would have been less had I not seen the South African soccer player who had mistaken my Oklahoma friendliness for romantic potential and had thus been ringing me daily since the night of Julien and Youssef's going away party two weeks previously. When I recognized the guy and his buddy, I made an abrupt dodge to take cover behind a book stall. I stood there with my arms full of bags to mail to the States for about 5 minutes as I prayed that they wouldn't recognize me. When the coast was clear, I finally found the DHL office and mailed my 12 kilo parcel to Indy for a mere $200.

I then returned to finish my packing and could not find my 14,000 rupee in cash to pay my Bishop's College rent! $400 US gone! So I ran back to DHL in case I was about to mail it home. No luck. Apparently the travel gods were not satisfied with my wallet when I arrived; they wanted cash too!

It was pouring rain by this point (I decided both Kolkata and I were tearful on my last day in the city). I went to chapel to say goodbye. I thanked the student body, and everyone came to speak with me after the service. I started to cry when a few of my closer friends walked up. It was combination of sleep-deprivation, the psychological trauma of losing so much cash, and the emotional realization that I was actually leaving. Of course, all the Indian men were appalled , but awkwardly tried to comfort me by respectfully shaking my hand and complimenting me on my Hindi singing from a few weeks back. Their goofy 1970s pro-football player mustaches (all the rage among young Indian men) cheered me up, if not their kinds words.

I headed to Park Street finally around 2 pm. I had a final lunch at Flurry's (a restaurant where I ate often) and then I went to meet Cecile for a coffee at Barista (the place of faintage). Saying goodbye to Cecile was AWFUL!!! I'm still not quite sure that it has all sunk in. She was undoubtedly my first and best friend in Kolkata. We hit it off immediately and were able to break our way through the language barriers to stay close for my entire time there. I will see Cecile again (I'll travel to Lyon soon, I hope), but days aren't the same without her. I wore the earrings that she picked out for me as a gift form all the French kids. She knew that I always wore earrings (an Indian development for me) and chose a pair to particularly compliment my face shape and coloring. J'aime bien Cecile!

Now it was really time to leave. Maggie, Teresa, Amos and Sandeep all took me to the train and I hugged the last of my Kolkata life goodbye as I wrapped my arms around them in a final farewell. If I hadn't been so freaked out by the creepy guy staring at me, I would have bawled the entire 12-hour train ride to Bilaspur. As it was, I merely tried to best the creep by reading (as though his stares were no big deal). He won the staring contest, when around 2 am I couldn't see the words on my pages anymore. I set up my bed so that my head was settled in such a way that he couldn't see my face from his angle. Two minutes later, he moved to a bed on the other side, and he set up a new shop to stare at me for the next four hours... SERIOUSLY CREEPY... welcome to India!

I arrived in Bilaspur only one hour late and a driver patiently waited for me from Mungeli. We had to stop in town to pick up some tables and chairs for the CNI school before heading to Mungeli about 40 km away. as I sat on the bench outside the table shop, entire families came outside to stare for long periods at the white woman in their town. It was nuts! Not creepy, simply odd how completely acceptable it seemed to openly gape at me. Toto, I don't think we're in Kolkata anymore!

And It Begins... CRAP!

2008-08-11T01:57:00.000-07:00

I kissed Mani on the cheek and promised to be in touch via Facebook (hurrah for the world wide web!). Then I stepped out of the back seat to hug the beautiful man in pink who was standing beside the car.

'It's been a pleasure,' I told him, and Manu kissed my cheek.

He blew me another kiss with a faint smile and said, 'Je tu verrai en France!' ('I will see you in France!')

I turned towards the gate and walked into the Bishop's College campus. I managed to make it past the security guard and nearly half way to my room before bursting into tears. I like Mani (he's a proper Bengali man and very nice), but I adore Manu. I cannot believe that we just said 'good-bye' and how real (and how thoroughly devastating) it actually was. Oh man! This is no joke! I am leaving Kolkata in less than 36 hours!

Manu was traveling when I first hooked up with the French crew. I met him for the first time on the night of his 24th birthday party in Youssef's Jadavpur flat. He immediately overtook the room with good cheer (despite the fact that we had all been slightly annoyed that he was running over 2 hours late for his own party and then arrived with three quite sketch Indian men... Manu makes friends with everyone he meets and refuses to think anything but the best about people). He insisted that I, a total stranger who just happened to be at his birthday party, sit next to him and join in the card game that they were playing. This is the way Manu works, and it is impossible to not be enveloped by his positive attitude.

One night (as I, myself, was in a monstrous mood), I told Manu how I appreciate that he always wears a giant smile.

He responded, 'I smile always because life is always good. There is no reason not to smile!'

I absolutely adore Manu.

I realize, as I am writing this and fighting back more tears, that I have come to think of Manu as a big brother-type (despite his being a solid six months younger than I). I think I will miss him the most of all the guys in our French-speaking group. He has the biggest heart, and I really respect him for that.

Saying good-bye to Manu makes the reality of my departure all-consuming for me. If tonight (and my hysterical tears) is any indication of how this whole leaving thing is going to work, I'm doomed! The next 36 hours are going to be unimaginably dreadful!

An Interesting Development

2008-08-09T05:13:00.000-07:00

About half way through last week I realized that I have begun to smell like India. The fiery curries from the foods and sweet spices from the chai have seeped into my body so that my skin exudes the exotic aroma of this place. Each morning I awake to the now-familiar scent of a night's sleep under the gentle breeze of the ceiling fan. As I groggily lather myself in jasmine soap, I wonder how long it will be before my body reclaims the light "country linens" and fresh misty perfumes so popular in America. There is nothing soft about this Indian fragrance; it is rich and robust. It smells of complicated plurality and colorful mystery. For me it is both foreign and familiar. This is yet another sign of how India has claimed me... my mind, my heart, and now my body as well.

Bomb Blasts in Kolkata

2008-08-04T01:46:00.000-07:00

A blast shook the Kolkata neighborhood of Chitpore's Jyotinagar colony yesterday afternoon, killing four. There was an immediate concern that this was indeed the fulfillment of terrorist bomb threats released earlier last week that had caused an increase in security throughout the city. Last night police were everywhere, carrying large military riffles and setting up check points at busy intersections throughout the city. Park Street (my usual hang out) still welcomed families out for a Sunday evening stroll and ice cream cone, but the city was much quieter than most weekends I have experienced here. There had been a bomb scare at the airport earlier in the weekend as well when three unclaimed bags were found sitting in an airport terminal. Upon further inspection of both instances, Kolkata police have ruled out terrorist activity... this time. The airport bags were not bombs, and the deadly blast was caused by an abandoned military shell on the road. Here is the link to the Times of India article for those who are interested: http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/Bomb_explosion_kills_four_in_Kolkata/rssarticleshow/3321890.cms

After the bombings in Bangalore and Amedabad, all of India is on a heightened sense of alert when it comes to terrorist threats. Things are tense here, and street conversations often include phrases such as 'what is this world we now find ourselves in?'. India is such a beautiful country in so many ways; the kindness of Indians can be rivaled by none. Still, tensions run high, particularly when religion comes into the mix. While this time it was not terrorist activity that produced the deadly explosion, there is still a sense that the City of Joy is merely biding its time before something unspeakable happens at the hands of extremists. What is this world we now find ourselves in, indeed.

Become Indian, Just a Little Bit

2008-08-02T02:17:00.000-07:00

I sang in chapel today at Bishop's College, a song in Hindi. Everyone in the group has been quite impressed by how well I picked up the pronunciation of the Hindi words ('No one will believe that this is your first time in India, you're Hindi is so sweet!'). I even learned the chorus from memory, which is something that astonished many of the students and professors here. It makes me all the more excited to attempt actually learning Hindi when I return to Chicago. There is something quite satisfying in mastering a simple traditional Indian hymn. It makes me feel like a piece of me is legitimately becoming Indian, which is something that pleases me greatly... my heart is already there.

Never a Fun Thing

2008-08-02T02:02:00.000-07:00

It is always difficult to say goodbye, but the experience becomes particularly significant when a farewell carries with it the knowledge that you will probably never set eyes on a person again. Today I wished 'Bon Voyage' to two of my favorite people in Kolkata. Julien and Youssef left for a month of traveling through India before returning to France and Morocco, as their internships are now complete. My time in this city has been marked by countless nights of cooking dinners at Youssef's apartment in Jadavpur, going to listen to Latin music at our favorite Kolkata pub, and dancing until the early morning hours with my French speaking friends. Julien is the garbage disposal of our group. His 21-year old male metabolism allows him to consume not only his own absurdly large meal, but also every morsel left on the five or six other plates at the table and still remain unfairly thin. (I suppose I'll have to become accustomed to asking for a 'to go' bag now.) Youssef always provides the perfect combination of utter hilarity and intense philosophical musings, and I will miss our numerous evenings of genuine laughter and meaningful conversations. The city will not be the same in their absence, and it makes more poignant the point that this Kolkata life of mine is only temporary.

I am thinking even more about my own departure from this city in a week and a half. While I am very sad to contemplate leaving, somehow it seems less depressing as I have another few weeks of research and exciting adventures waiting for me (not to mention the triumphant return to my family, friends, and Diet Dr. Pepper... yes, I am seriously addicted to the sweet sweet American carbonated nectar). I long for the 25 hours of airline travel that will carry me across the Atlantic to my home, but I am beginning to really mourn the loss of the life I have created in this place. Youssef and Julien leaving today brings a realness to that prospect. It is our hope to meet again in a few weeks in Amritsar; but if India has taught me anything, it is to never hold too closely to your expectations.

As I sprinted out of the taxi into a sudden downpour and the quickly forming puddles in front of Bishop's College, I took a short glance at my two dear friends. In that split second, I held the full knowledge that it just may be the last time that I would take in their faces from anything but a photograph. The rain felt eerily appropriate, as in that moment an overwhelming sadness flooded my heart.

Some Thoughts on Christianity in N. India

2008-07-31T02:45:00.000-07:00

It seems as though ecumenism in India (Northern India in particular) is rooted in a necessity, more than simply a theological ideal. I have already discussed in various posts the extreme religiosity that permeates the Indian culture, and in a country where Christianity is such an extreme religious minority, those who profess a faith based in the Gospel of Jesus Christ must come together rather than remain disconnected due to denominational boundaries. I do not intend to make the claim that a theology of Christian unity does not play a significant role in the identity of Indian Christians, however. The ecumenical ideal is vibrant as vibrant as the women's sarees here, and many of the leaders in the North Indian unity movement were Indians, rather than their Western counterparts.

T.K. Thomas spent much of his career working in the Geneva offices of the World Council of Churches and was considered one of the finest advocates of the world Christian unity movement. His numerous writings championed the most cutting edge ideas of ecumenical theology (particularly in India). "The Christian ideal, then, has nothing exclusive about it," Thomas writes. "It invites people of all religious persuasions and people of no religious persuasion to work together for human development", largely because Christianity recognizes its Christ as the fullest embodiment of authentic humanity. Still, according to Thomas, such emptying and blurring of any religious identity is a necessity of the Christian faith. "We cannot follow the Christ who emptied himself without emptying ourselves of all things -- including our identities."

Furthermore, Thomas was a leading name in cause of inclusive language and women's rights in the Indian Church (women's rights, something to which I am personally committed). In a country of extreme classism, caste-ism, and sexism, he argued that it was simply inappropriate to discriminate against 'the least of these' (in this case, women) in words and deeds if we are to hold Jesus's Gospel message true. God is ever present and aware of all that occurs. God is everywhere and all things. Thus, "everything must of course include woman, but she is not seen, she is, for the most part, excluded." As a result, women (who actually make up the majority of practicing Christians in India) are followers of the male monopolized God. In the current Indian culture, such claims are quite revolutionary, but so is our Christian faith, he argues. Christ came to give good news to the oppressed, thus requiring the Church, both male and female, to become more "daringly eclectic" with our language for God.

Still, nothing about such claims are simple in a society where one's location in the cultural hierarchy makes all the difference. Many of the Hindus that I have met talk to me about their appreciation for the man Jesus of Nazareth. They recognize the value in his teachings of love and care for others, and they even speak of him as a respected Guru. Christians are esteemed for their work with the poor and the excellent private education that they provide India. Still, Christianity has a message that is not particularly appealing to those in the higher echelons of Indian society, as it advocates for a breaking down of exclusionary social and political structures. Hinduism often welcomes elitism (though I do not pretend to be naive of the same potential in prosperity gospel or predestination theologies within Christianity), thus the majority of Christian converts from Hinduism are those in the lower castes. And so we return to the cultural necessity of uniting in a common cause, or faith. Dhanji Bhai Nauroji said in 1881: "[Indian Christians] belong, it is true, to various denominations, but seldom if ever do they make anything of denominational differences. The fact is, they do not know and are not eager to know, what these difference exactly are. They are Christians, and they glory in that name."

Yet, the colonized Indian Christians still remained dependent on their missionaries and thus held tightly to the ties of their mission churches. As a result, the conversations surrounding Church union in North India brought with it unique tensions concerning dual identities: the traditions of their Western evangelists and the realities of their indigenous faith. They required approval from the Western powers, since the movement was one for unity (rather than further separation in the name of denominational preferences) and often struggled to find an acceptable road map for union in the eyes of their Western founding churches.

Eventually there was success after four official drafts of a unity plan. The powers that be in the West were satisfied with the proposal, and in 1970, the Church of North India was inaugurated. Some have said that the greatest and last significant success of CNI was the day it unified. They argue that few know of the continued work of the Church of North India and that (particularly here in Kolkata) the Catholic and Assemblies of God presence is the Christianity of which most Indians are aware. Perhaps that is largely caused by the tensions that have always existed in CNI between its historical ties with the colonizing religion on the West and its desire to be an indigenous Indian Church. Both the Roman catholics and AGs are still controlled by their Western heads and can be more publicly present due to their outsider status. It is much more difficult for an Indian Church to decipher its mixed identity in a public sphere. It again becomes the struggle that Mainline Protestantism in America grapples with : how do we both profess loudly our unique Christian faith and still be active and respected participants in a pluralistic society that does not necessarily share our faith commitments? How do we be revolutionary prophets for the peace and justice of Jesus Christ without disrespecting those who believe differently (and thus negating our own purpose of sharing the Good News)?

I think the beginning of the answer must be unity. Holding onto fights over history and polity, of schisms and excommunications does not seem appropriate any longer (I am not certain, personally, that it ever was, but that's a conversation for another day). CNI is on the right path, they are Christians in Northern India first and products of certain mission fields second. The next stage of their work will be to discern what their future holds as a faith communion. It has been nearly 40 years since the 40 year unity conversation culminated in the inauguration of the Church of North India. If the seminarians I have met at Bishop's College are any indication of the forthcoming church (and I like to think that seminarians always are!), I am very excited to see what CNI has in store for Northern India.

Two Weeks Left... Sad Face!

2008-07-31T02:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my two week marker for leaving Kolkata. I have ridiculously mixed emotions about it. Even now, as I write the words 'leaving Kolkata', I am getting choked up at the thought, while simultaneously longing to be on a plane over the Atlantic towards home. My friend Danny Mc was absolutely correct when he told me during our tea date in Delhi "India will challenge you and change you, it always does, but it will never be in the ways that you expected." India has its own plans, that is certainly true.

In some ways, I expected to be overcome by the extremity of this country. It is so very different than any place I have ever been before (ah, Cynthia Lindner's point from the beginning of this whole grant process). The poverty is overwhelming; the language(s) is so insanely complicated for me (due to how very different it is from any of those I have studied in my life); the culture treats women in a bizarrely privileged and simultaneously repressed fashion; I, as a Westerner, am both a welcomed profit margin and a mistrusted imperial representative.

Still, the stares don't bother me anymore; I happily wear my jeans on the street and a salwar kameez to church; I give directions to the cabbies (in Bengali!) and fight for the metered rate when they try to double the fare; I wash my clothes in a bucket, then use it for my bath; I am singing in a Hindi ensemble. I love Kolkata and feel in many ways like it has become another home to me. Perhaps my American homestead-trio (Bville, where I grew up; Indy, where my parents own a house; and Chicago, where I live now) has made "home" a less concrete concept. Still, I feel like the woman that I will be for the rest of my life will be intensely linked with my time in this place. I feel like I need to come home (to the States) in order to even begin to process this summer. In many ways, my scholarly research on CNI has been simple: library books and articles are familiar... it has been reading, interviewing, and attending worship services. And while very little about the Church is easy (particularly one based in Christian unity with diversity as a founding principle, hear that my Disciples family?), everything about being a 24-year old woman traveling alone in India is VERY difficult.

It seems fitting that I would be in India for the Monsoon season; I often feel like there is an internal monsoon brewing as well. On any given day, it is sunny and bright, humid and cloudy, raining and cool. 30 seconds are enough to turn the previous sunshine into a desperate downpour. A monsoon in the city means flooding of ancient and unequipped sewage infrastructure, more common power-outages, the redistribution of waste by newly formed street side streams, not to mention the increased hardships a season of rain and flooding has on the urban street dwelling community. Yet, the monsoon brings with it the promise of water for a year of crop production (which means food!) and a cleansing of debris left from the previous months. When the first bursts of the monsoon occur all buildings suddenly empty as everyone gathers in the streets to celebrate the coming of the rains. Children splash in the puddles on their way to school, women in vibrantly colored sarees of cotton and even silk dance in the downpour, and men laughingly hug one another as their suits become drenched by the waters falling from the sky. The monsoon means that life will continue; and despite how frightening that may be, everyone in India knows what a blessing it is to live.

Safe

2008-07-30T04:12:00.000-07:00

First, let me reassure everyone who may have heard the news of terrorists threats aimed at Kolkata. When you are reading this there may or may not have been a series of bombings throughout the Indian city where I am currently staying. I am 100% safe at this moment in time. I was just paying the taxi who had brought Cecile, Carole and me to Jadavpur (the Kolkata suburb where Youssef has an apartment) when my phone began to ring. Rev. Dr. Sunil Caleb was calling to ask me to come back to Bishop's College immediately, as there had been a series of emails sent indicating that a terrorist organization would be targeting popular Kolkata locations in a series of bomb attacks. Unfortunately by the time he had explained the situation, our cab had left and there was not another taxi to be found. Sunil said that it would be okay for me to stay at Jadavpur for the night as long as we avoided public places. To be honest, I felt more comfortable sequestered away in Youssef's suburban flat than in a taxi that would necessarily be crossing major overpasses on the return trip to the city proper. I explained the situation to my four French friends (plus the Moroccan Youssef), and I was a little shocked that they were not particularly concerned. Sunil was certain that these threats were to be taken seriously, but no one in the apartment, besides Youssef and myself, seemed at the least bit worried. Then I realized these friends are residents of the country that openly objected to the American 'War on Terror'. They have not had an open attack on their national soil; it was not the Eiffel Tour seen crumbling to the ground on September 11th. I do no say this as a critique, but rather as an observation that it makes sense that the American would be freaked out, while the French in the flat would be discussing whether to use butter or oil to fry the chicken samosas.

Cecile noticed that I was uneasy, and I explained that Americans are particularly jumpy these days when the word 'terrorism' comes up. I also told them about being in elementary school when my home state was attacked by one of our own (the 1995 Murrah Building bombing in Oklahoma City). This stuff encourages particular paranoia as far as my own memories are involved, so I was going to be a bit edgy for the evening.

By 11:30 pm, all was still well in Kolkata, so we decided to head back to the city. I arrived at Bishop's College safe and sound (the police force was increased in number and in firearms, so the city is clearly on alert), and I will stay in less public locations until we know that the risks have passed. Just to give you a sense of the time difference, India is 9.5 hours ahead of EST in the US. So, when the time punch at the bottom of my post says 4:30 am, it is actually 2 pm in Kolkata. I am safe, so no need to worry about me. Do keep the city of Kolkata, the state of India, and all who reside here (both those targeted by terrorists and those who feel that terrorism is appropriate) in your thoughts and prayers. Thanks!

What's In a Name?

2008-07-30T04:04:00.000-07:00

My name in India is essentially 'Bettany' or 'Bet'. No one can come close to pronouncing it with the 'th'. Even Miriam, my Irish friend could only call me 'Betny' (something I became accustomed to while living in Galway), though she could at least understand what I was saying when I told her my name (Just FYI, there is an INSANELY huge worm crawling across my floor right now, and I'm not the least freaked out!). Imagine my utter glee when I met Kelli from Ohio tonight. Not only did she have a beautiful midwestern accent, but my name made perfect sense to her. The 'th' sound was music to my ears!

Wait for It...!!!!!

2008-07-30T03:58:00.000-07:00

Anne, one of my French friends, brought home a DVD from the Bastille Day celebration we attended two weeks ago (I can't believe that it has only been two weeks -- especially since I was bed-ridden for five of those days -- but the time passes differently here). The Indian version of 'Entertainment Tonight' (or ET) television was at the party, since it was one of the major social events in the Kolkata year. We all laughed as they talked about 'all the celebrities and famous people of Kolkata' in attendance at the party... and then... wait for it... the video cut to a shot of MOI!!!!! There I was, chatting with an Indian Brit I had met that night. There had been a camera man around me for several minutes at the party, but there were actually two shots of me, one of Anne's back, and a full face shot of Cecile! My friend Santanu was interviewed (since he's a famous Bengali photographer, something I didn't know until seeing the video), and they kept talking about what a "totally happening event" it was on the Kolkata scene. Talk about a total hoot! Cecile talks about life in Kolkata as a 'very strange fairytale'. This considering, I think she may well be right.

Can't Get Away From It

2008-07-30T03:48:00.000-07:00

So, I am singing in the choir at Bishop's College. I know, I know, big surprise that I would discover a way to sing, but its still fantastic to have music in my life here. We have a performance on Sunday at St. James Church (CNI, formerly Anglican) and I am very excited. Both songs are in English (one is 'Let Us Break Bread Together', one of my personal favorites), but they all have a very unique Asian sound. At first, it was difficult to remember the Indian pronunciation of words, yet those eventually stuck (though I still want to say the 'th' sound, rather than a simple 't'). Also, I am singing contralto (most of the 10 women are sopranos) and have to sing with a very nasally quality. Still, despite the differences, I am loving it. Today at lunch, one of the 3rd years asked if I would sing with the Hindi group as longs as they were able to write out the lyrics in 'English letters'. I forget that everyone here considers the Western alphabet 'English'. Yet, it makes sense considering British colonization. I have been thinking about trying to learn Hindi or Bengali when I return to UC in the fall. It will be ridiculously difficult, but worth it, since I absolutely plan to come back. Have I mentioned that I LOVE IT HERE!?!?! I hope that Maggie's ordination as one of the first CNI female priests in Kolkata will give me an excuse to return. Maybe I'll even sing in the choir at her ordination service!

Thoughts on India

2008-07-26T05:15:00.000-07:00

I burst into tears yesterday when I realized that I how soon I am leaving... again (you'd think that I would have gotten used to it by now... but no!) I have taken to reading travel journals of Westerners' journeys throughout India and was in the middle of one woman's account of finally boarding a plane home to Sydney after two years here. At first I thought, "I want to go home!" and then I realized, "Ten weeks is not possibly enough!" At that moment I found myself desperately homesick, for both America and for this place that I have grown to love as a second home.

A few nights before I left, Mom and I had dinner with a couple who have spent a number of holidays traveling throughout India. I was in solid freak-out mode, but the Grant's stories calmed my immediate nerves and made me more excited about my trip than afraid. Mrs. Grant told me about witnessing Mr. Grant after he returned from his first trip to India. 'He simply stayed in bed for hours, then would suddenly bolt up and begin speaking rapidly about his trip. I had never seen him in such a state.' Eventually she joined him on a trip to India and began to understand.

India is a land of extremes, particularly when it comes to love. Bollywood movies portray ridiculous heroes who pine for the beautiful heroine of their desires; music mournfully longs for passionate affairs; restaurants are lit by candles and dim torches to encourage romantic rendezvous... all of this in a culture of carefully negotiated arranged marriages. Perhaps it is because reality so rarely allows for such fantasies to consume life that India demands to dream. If one cannot spend eternity with a soul mate, then you spend this incarnation in love with India. I know I am.

Midnight Philosopher

2008-07-26T04:38:00.000-07:00

Youssef is about everything one might expect a Moroccan to be: his is charming, smooth talking, hot tempered, and devastatingly handsome. He has become one of my more constant of Kolkata friends -- insofar as I am constantly certain that every ounce of time with him can only be measured by the frequency that I am forced to roll my eyes at his hilariously cliche antics (it has not been a successful night with Youssef until he has instigated utter absurdity .. in that Moroccan way of his). As soon as the night falls and the mosquitoes rise, however, Youssef becomes a philosopher. Surrounded by a cloud of his chain-smoking, he insists that his conversation partners discuss the meaning of life, the significance of travel (which he terms 'your pilgrimage'), and 'this thing we call relationship with humans'.

A few nights ago he told me that his word for life is 'God'. I grinned and told him that he stole my word ("You jerk!") and then specified that I would have chosen the exact phrase 'the Divine'. I never talk God or divinity with my French-speaking friends (most of them are properly French and lapsed Catholics who are politely freaked out by any religious conversations), so it was a bit starling to be discussing faith journeys in Youssef and Manu's Jadavpur flat.

My Moroccan friend is Muslim, though he isn't practicing right now. "It is very bad, Bettany," he said, "I am not practicing." He told me about his trip to Darjeeling (a city that sits on the base of the Himalayas). One day while there, he felt compelled to stop for one of the daily prayers to Mecca. As he rose, he saw the mountains ("What is the word for strange feeling on my arms?" "Goosebumps.") "Yes, I felt goosebumps along my arms and I knew for the first time in my 26 years that God is real." This time in India has thus become for him a pilgrimage to find the truth of Islam. He lit another cigarette and said, "I do not know if Islam makes sense, but now I ask questions about it, and maybe one day I will practice again."

I smiled at the honesty and simplicity of his statement. I told him of the night I spent standing on a volcano in Hawaii under an indescribable dome of stars and sang an 'Alleluia' to God. As the song reached its crescendo, the volcano began to erupt and small streams of flowing lava bubbled into the sea. "I felt the Divine in that moment, standing in the peaceful, yet terrifying glory of God's creation."

"So you practice, non?" Youssef asked.
"Yes, I practice."
"And you are Christian, oui?"
"Yes, I am Christian."
"That is good for you," He took another deep drag.

I looked at my friend and remembered the Hindi greeting 'Namaste', which means 'I see the divine in you.' The Divine is deep within you, Youssef, I thought. You will one day find that Islam makes sense for you. I am certain of that.

The Land of Religion

2008-07-25T04:40:00.000-07:00

I had been sitting in a taxi, on my way to my favorite coffee shop on Park Street (yes, the one in which I fainted), when I saw familiar faces from the Baptist Missionary Society. 'The Christians' were standing on the corner of the road, and I began to yell 'Oyje! Oyje! Daane! Baz!' ('There! There! To the Right! Stop!') while waving frantically in the direction of my friends. I tossed a 50 rupee note at the driver for a 30 rupee ride and sprinted across the street. We all exchanged hugs and they began telling me of their many adventures over the past two weeks. Their stories were mostly about praying over Hindu converts to Christianity, and I realized that I wasn't merely pretending to be interested in their adventures, I was actually moved! I remembered how freaked out I was (but obligated to allow it) when they asked to lay hands on my and pray during our first weeks in Kolkata. By the end of the 30 minutes of Bethany-focused prayer (which included chanting, singing, and what I believe may have been speaking in tongues), I have to admit that I felt more willing to let go (partially) of my obsessive compulsive tendencies and to trust God's control during this time in India. If there is one thing that India is teaching me, it is a new kind of pluralism and religious tolerance. So they like to pray over people, does that really threaten my more pristine (and less charismatic) version of Protestant Christianity? Maybe a little bit at home, but not in this place. In India, religion is everywhere.

This is not a land of the cherry/B.O. scented rearview mirror air freshener; rather, each taxi and autorickshaw is decorated with various pictures of Ganesh, Mahadevi (the great goddess), or Shiva and Vishnu, whoever is the driver's Hindu god of choice. Some even sport freshly burning incense and recently purchased garlands of flowers along the dashboards. For the terrifying 20-minute drive , you find yourself praying that there may just be something salvific in their makeshift Hindu temple that will guarantee your safe arrival at your specified destination.

The Hindu religion, in its purest and more authentic form, is a religion of tolerance. There are so many choices of divine manifestations of the One Divine Absolute, how could Hinduism then claim a single Truth to God? Instead, Hindu ritual takes this opportunity to get personal, to mold itself to the worshiper while that person is also following a long-standing religious tradition. Shiva, often known as the god of outsiders, may find a strong following amongst those excluded from the Brahmanical mainstream, whereas a popular myth associated with Vishnu depicts the moment when Brahma gains the ability to create (both very important stories for the caste system). Each of these deities have multiple incarnations -- to increase the divine buffet -- with additional wives and offspring as well. The options are endless, and the faith is devout... all for this trinity -- Shiva, Vishnu, and Brahma -- the divine Absolute. (Plus, there are numerous forms of Yoga, countless ashrams associated with Gurus, and a plethora of religions which derive from Hinduism... Buddhism and Sikhism, for example.)

I wonder if the Roman Catholic Saints provide some of the same relationship of intimacy with the divine as the Hindu gods seem to. I think, perhaps, Saint Joan d'Arc could be a helpful ally as I make my way through the male-dominated Div School. Maybe I should have spent an evening in conversation with Saint Christopher before leaving on this ten-week journey (I don't care if he's been officially ousted by the Vatican or not! Woot for the Saint of travelers!) Certainly the gentle face of Mother Teresa (okay, not a Saint yet, but I'm sure its more a matter of time) reassures me as I walk through the impoverished streets of Kolkata.

It must be difficult at times to be a Christian in India. Everywhere you go, you are bombarded by religious relics and rituals that (according to the European missionaries who brought you Reformed Protestantism) are no more than superstition or dark magic. The Hindu religion and Hindi culture are so often intertwined. That must be more exasperating than being a Democrat in Washington County, Oklahoma (and that ain't easy, my friends!). Still, it often seems that perhaps the Hindi culture is exactly the kind of place that a Christian minority could thrive. A divine creator known through the life and message of the Messiah and the works of the Holy Spirit is not incredibly far fetched in comparison. Our Absolute is also known by a plethora of names: YHWH, Jahova, Lord, Emmanuel, Jesus, the Christ, the Dove, Tongues of Fire, the Holy Spirit... maybe it's not that different than Vishnu, Shiva, and Brahma.

Next time I am nearing death by taxi ride, as the driver lays on his horn and thanks Nandi (Shiva's vehicle, the white bull), I'll grasp my Jerusalem rosary and pray to my (Christian) God for safety... can't hurt, right?

When Dreams Come True... Kinda

2008-07-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

Things never quite seem to work out as one plans. When I was 16 years old and spending my first Bastille Day in Paris, I was convinced that I would meet some cute Parisian boy named Jean-Luc and have a three day love affair with him (in the PG-imagination of an Oklahoma girl obsessed with Leonardo DiCaprio's character in blockbuster hits such as Titanic). On our final day in Paris, I had not met my French prince charming, but I did come across a french fries stand called 'Jean-Luc's Frites' at the carnivale outside the Louvre. I took a dazzling picture with my Parisian french fry boyfriend that night, and I returned to "our spot" two summers later as I celebrated Bastille Day in Paris with my family.

A few nights ago, Cecile told me that Vincent likes me. According to her, he is always like 'Ou est Bettany? Ou est Bettany?' Hmmm... Cecile claims that he is a very nice man; I think he is a very sweet kid. Interesting how the difference between her 20-year old eyes and mine which are nearly 25: the 21-year old Vincent is a completely different person to the two of us. I think he probably likes me because I'm different (the only American in the group), just as five years ago, I would have loved his fantastic French accent. C'est la vie, I suppose... funny nonetheless.

Always the Bible Belt

2008-07-25T04:12:00.000-07:00

Phillip Peacock told me the other day that the Church of South India folks were much more ridged than those who are members of CNI (CSI is much the same unity model as the Church of North India, but they have been in existence for a bit longer than CNI). Some claim that the Church of South India is the true example of Indian ecumenism, and that CNI merely copied its structure and form. But CNI had a really rough time of it. For starters, it was originally supposed to be known as the Church of North India and Pakistan. Well, the Pakistan bit clearly fell through after the partition. I can't help but wonder if it would have been more helpful or hurtful to have a religious body uniting itself over and among the disputed Northern Indian/Pakistani territory. Would the Christians be able to provide a moderating voice for peace, or would they simply be considered another dangerous religious minority to those so deeply ingrained in this conflict of hatred? I suppose the Christians in Jerusalem haven't fared 100% well, maybe that's the example from which to work. I dunno...

Still, I think that sometimes CNI got a really raw end of the deal and are working as the underdogs. Christianity has been much better known in the southern part of the country. Goa is the home of Portuguese-Catholicism in India, and St. Francis Xavier's tomb is supposedly there; Chennai (formerly Madras) boats St. Thomas' Mound and is the central home of Christians who identify themselves with Thomas' mission; Velangini is the tiny village in which the Virgin Mary has appeared multiple times (three of which were between 1560 and 1869). The South is rich in Christian history and sacred sights, while Christianity in the North is more closely associated with the colonizing Brits (both Churches of England and Scotland became part of CNI in the union), and more recently with Mother Teresa (there is a photo of her hanging above my computer right now).

Phillip said Christianity in the South of India is much more like "the American Bible Belt". I wonder if the whole geography bit is something of a coincidence, or maybe the South is always a Christian stronghold.

Back from the MIA... Sorta

2008-07-21T22:51:00.000-07:00

I wish I had a story of an old withered fortune-teller whispering into my ear "Miiiizzz. India goood forr miiiizzz. In India Miiiz finds frrriends, finds looove, finds herrrself. Buuuuttt, Miiizz gets big clunck on the heeeead in India too!" If a fortune-teller had explained my Indian destiny to me as such, then perhaps the past three days would have been easier to bear. But, alas, no fortune, no warning, just a humiliating collapse at my favorite Kolkata coffee shop as I dropped to the floor in a dead faint while waiting for my daily lemon ginger tea. (Note: I'm okay now, typing and all!)

Needless to say, everyone I know here has been in a minor degree of panic because the Westerner blacked out on Saturday. I will admit that I have probably been the person displaying one of the highest levels of anxiety, which has probably not helped the situation much at all. One minute I was wishing my tea would come already so I could sit down (!), the next thing I knew I was being shaken awake from the most lovely dream. Unfortunately, my bed was the coffee-shop floor and there was a crowd of terrified Indians trying to assist me to my feet.

"It was a seizure!" One man exclaimed.

"No. No." A woman told him, "It was a heat stroke! Westerners can't handle the Kolkata heat!" (I remember being mildly annoyed by her comment. I had zero clue what was happening, but let me tell you about August in Oklahoma, lady!)

"Can I call someone for you?" A youngish-looking man in a white shirt asked me.

"Aaaaaar..." I groaned as they placed me at the table. "I thhhhink I'mmmm okaaaay. Just neeeeed waterrrrrr...."

They slowly dispersed. I then called Sunil.

"Hiiiieeeee, Suuuuniiiiil," I slurred. My voice and limbs hadn't yet discovered that I was no longer unconscious. "Uuuuuuummmm..... I fainted aaaat Barrrreeestaas aaannnd I need someonnnne to come get meee heeerrrre."

"You're at Barista's? We're coming straight away, Bethany. We'll be there soon." Poor Sunil, he was totally freaked.

I spent the next 25 minutes trying to convince my fingers to grasp the water bottle, contemplating another faint so I could at least lie down again, and praying "Please God let Sunil get here soon. Please God!!!" I finally decided to brave the spiral staircase that led to the second floor bathroom (this is an utterly unfortunate layout for Barista's more sickly clientele) and returned to see Professor Phillip Peacock standing at the counter.

"We have a taxi," he told me while taking my pulse. "We're taking you straight away to the hospital to be checked out by a doctor!"

The five minute cab ride was more terrifying than normal. I had zero clue what was happening on the road, but I was certain that my head was about to explode all over the lovely Vishnu sticker on the dashboard.

The hospital was gloriously air conditioned and much cleaner than any American hospital I had seen. I was immediately ushered into a private examination room (take that three-hour long UC emergency room wait because the Student Health Care Center can't see me for three days!). The doctor arrived by the time I had climbed onto the examination table. He was accompanied by a young nurse wearing a crisp blue nurse's dress and starched white cap. Well, the costumes were certainly appropriate for the war zone inside my head.

The doctor was very concerned that no one could tell him the exact circumstances of my episode. No, I am not having stomach problems. Yes, I had a good night's sleep the previous night. No, I am not having stomach problems. Yes, I can eat the food. Yes, I am drinking lots of water. No, I have had zero issues with my stomach since arriving one month ago today (note to self: the 20th seems to be a day of bad luck for me in India. June= lost wallet; July= public fainting spell; August= perhaps best not to leave my room that day).

So, we've established that my stomach is handling India quite nicely. Now, we must consider what is actually going on! Turns out my cold is more than an annoying cough and runny nose. I have some viral infection that is quite common among Bengalis during this time of year. The constantly changing weather, mixed with the heat, mixed with the Kolkata pollution wreaks havoc on the human nasal passages (Kolkata makes Gary, IN, seem like a fresh air lake resort). Mine has spread to my ears, which are now infected, thus causing me to become dizzy and pass out. Good news is: I have already been sick for one week, so I only have another two weeks to go until I am once again clear headed. Bad new is: I cannot travel on an overnight train to Mungeli alone this week (my trip to the Disciples hospital will have to be rescheduled, not canceled). So, with bag full of various drugs and a 500 rupee ER bill (roughly $13 US), I headed back to Bishop's College to sleep.

Sleep is a very optimistic word for my lying down activities over the first two days. The bump on my head made it impossible for me to sleep on my back, but each time I tried to lay on my stomach, the sinus pressure would cause my eyeballs to pop out of their sockets (I write this figuratively, but was in such a massive drug-induced state, I cannot be certain that my eyes remained stationary in reality either). For the first time in India, I had stomach problems (go figure!) and could not keep my antibiotics down. I could only bring myself to eat small bites of toast, and I welcomed Maggie's ointment-laden skull massages as I tried vainly to fall asleep.

I began to feel better the following day, and I even welcomed a visit from Teresa (Maggie's younger sister) and Maggie that evening. I was sad to see them go, but it was time for me to get some sleep. Maybe tomorrow, my head would only feel a dull ache instead of the sharp wrenching pain of today.

No such luck. I could not sleep at all. Each time I would finally doze into slumber, an angry stiletto-heeled woman would chase me around a snow-covered forest with an extremely sharp icepick. Seriously terrifying stuff! So, my pain meds don't actually work and my sleeping meds now encourage strangely psychotic dreams. I much prefer the UC-finals induced zombie dreams, because at least I know how to defeat them by answering questions with absolute certainty (it has been two years now, so I can beat the UC zombies no problem!). I didn't sleep at all until about 5 am, but I had a doctor's appointment at the hospital at 10:30 for a checkup.

I was in a dreadful state when Phillip and Maggie came to fetch me for yet another taxi ride (not again!). I was still sick to my stomach and thus refused to eat, my head was being chain-sawed from the inside, and I wanted my Mommy! I burst into tears when I saw the doctor arrive (on his day off) and tried desperately to reassure him that I always cried when I'm tired. Turns out, I needed four more medications (bringing my count now to eleven) and he used a nasal drop to clear my passages. Within five minutes, my head hurt noticeably less. He told me that I was never alone, because God was always with me (I wonder which God he meant, but I got the feeling it was the one I pray to). He promised that I would be well this time and wants to see me on Saturday. He's quite incredible, my doctor.

"Don't worry about payment," he told Phillip. "It is not worth your time."

So Phillip and Maggie took me to the little coffee bar beside the hospital (no, I didn't faint this time!) and forced me to eat a sandwich and drink a chai. By the end of our 30 minutes there, I was laughing with the two of them over stodgy old professor jokes (Phillip being a stodgy old professor himself).

I slept last night. No ice-pick dreams (though I did put my stilettos in my bag as I got ready for bed). I don't feel 100%, but its a lot better than the maybe 25% I felt 48 hours ago. Everyone here has been absolutely lovely and caring. I think that if I'm going to have an episode, this was absolutely the place to have it... even if I hadn't been warned by the fortune-teller....

WARNING!!!

2008-07-16T22:57:00.001-07:00

Well, I find that I am particularly homesick this morning. I expected this to be the case today, because I have had a really fantastic past four days and the first down day is always a bit of a drag. WARNING: Four Fabulous Days Equal a REALLY LONG Post... beware!

Just a little recap:

Saturday I spent the morning shopping with my friend Maggie for a few new tops. Since the clothing in Kolkata is basically a mixture of traditional Indian and contemporary Western fashions, I'm stocking up on Indian tops to wear with jeans and the trousers I brought. I am yet to wear a sari, but I do have a couple salwars (the pant and tunic set). So, shopping is almost always fantastic and we finished it off with a glass of freshly squeezed citrus juice (made right in front of us). In the afternoon, I went to the bookstore on Park Street to pick up some more novels and a new journal and met Miriam. Miriam and I were standing on the side of the road, trying to find an opening in the traffic (crossing the street in Kolkata is like an extreme sport, you seriously take your life into your hands with each attempt). Realizing that it would be quite a while before the flow of traffic would provide us with an opportunity for safe crossing, we started to chat. Turns out that Miriam just arrived in Kolkata from Dublin (where she's a grad student in Children's Health Science) and will be working at a school in Kolkata for a month. We exchanged emails and agreed to grab dinner soon. I made it back to AJC Bose Road just in time to meet the French kids for dinner. We ate at this amazing restaurant where I had the best lamb chops ever... for about $7 US. I spent a good deal of time trying to explain the menu to my non-native English speaking friends (how do you describe 'stir fry' to someone with limited English skills? Actually, how do you describe 'stir fry' at all?!?).

Sunday, I've already written about attending Maggie's father's birthday party and chatting with her aunt. Despite feeling under the weather, I had a lot of fun.

Monday was Bastille Day, the French Independence Day. I was invited to join the French kids (quick disclaimer: the French friends I have made are fully adults. They range from ages 20 to 30, so "kids" is simply a term I have chosen to avoid constantly calling them my 'crew' or 'posse' or something silly like that) to celebrate. The French Consulate hosts a huge party every year at the nicest hotel in Kolkata, the Taj Bengal (http://www.tajhotels.com/Luxury/TAJ%20BENGAL,KOLKATA/default.htm). It's apparently THE foreign party of the year in Kolkata (according to the locals I talked to that night), and none of us had anything appropriate to wear. So Teresa, Maggie's younger sister, took me shopping at the largest mall in West Bengal. I was in materialists' heaven! I even found an excuse to buy a pair of high heels for my trip (yes! finally!). I then returned home for some serious primp-age before meeting everyone for the party.

Okay, so the event was incredible! All the socialites of the Kolkata scene were there, the women in the most beautiful saris! I had been worried that the Bastille Day celebration would be particularly difficult for me and my horrific French language skills, but there were tons of English-speaking folks there. I met a guy who had lived in Michigan for the past seven years and was just recently transferred back to Kolkata. I met a man who was in India on business from Canada. I met a group of Italian students when the timidly asked if they were allowed to eat from the buffet. I ran into several of the Indians who I've met at various social functions here (one man is a math genius who studied under of of Einstein's best students!). I can't even begin to describe what an amazing night it was. We entered the hotel on a red carpet with photographers snapping pictures as we passed; there was unending food and the most delicious French chocolate everywhere; servers combed the ballroom with trays of French wines; string ensembles were strategically placed throughout the many rooms and played anything from Mozart to Bon Jovi. Everything about it was glamorous and chic... I wouldn't expect much less from the French, I suppose.

After the party, we decided to find a place to dance (discos in India are straight from a Bollywood movie!) and piled nine people into the taxi (ten, including the driver!). All the way into town, they sang Les Marseilles (the French national anthem) over and over. The energy was so invigorating that I found myself yelling "Vive le France!" as we climbed out of the taxi at our destination. It had been storming on-and-off all day, so we were met at the disco by about two feet of standing water. We decided to nix the disco and instead call it a night.

On Tuesday, I had dinner plans with Miriam, so I caught a cab into the Park Street area and decided to read in a coffee shop for a few hours leading up to our appointment. It is quite lovely maneuvering the city on my own now. Granted, I have a few key spots that I know (and therefore long), but nevertheless, it feels quite empowering having special places in Kolkata that have become my stomping grounds. I met Miriam for dinner (she invested in a food guide of Kolkata) and we made our way to a charming restaurant with gently lit tables, perfect for long,
intimate conversations (we jokingly vowed to find some cute men to bring back for a second dinner at the place). Four hours later, we had become bosom friends. She also attended university in Galway, so we walked our way down Quays Street, reminiscing over our favorite pubs and eateries along Galway's famed boulevard. By the end of the evening, we had made plans to visit several of Kolkata's more touristy sites (the city is not much for extended tourism) on Saturday, and I promised to call her the next time I was going out with the French kids (she has a weakness for French men, and there are certainly several charming candidates in the group for her to choose from). I went home, thoroughly content after an exceptionally enjoyable evening. I found myself longing to return to Ireland (my absolute favorite place in the world), and drifted to sleep thinking of the luscious green island where I spend a glorious four months in college.

What's Love Got to Do with It?

2008-07-16T22:50:00.000-07:00

I ate lunch last week with an Indian woman named Monami (like the French 'mon ami'). She works at the French consulate with my friend Anne. Monami is from Delhi, but lived in France for a while and has traveled extensively throughout Europe and Canada. She told me a story about teaching a class in Delhi with she decided to ask the 22-person class (ages 20-25) to discuss the topic 'Arranged Marriage vs. Love Marriage'. Twenty-one of the twenty-two young, modern Delhites said they would want their parents to arrange their marriages. The one man who said he hoped for a love match ended up marrying a Mexican woman and moving to the States. We started, then, talking about what constitutes being 'modern'.

Monami said that most Indians view 'modern' as wearing fashionable clothes, driving fancy cars, and going dancing at the best night clubs. But she doesn't agree with that definition. "Modernity is something spiritual, not merely physical," she said. I tend to agree. One has to THINK 'modernly' to be 'modern.' Monami's sister married a French musician, and Monami is a single woman who lives on her own. Monami's parents raised their daughters to be happen even if that goes outside the 'traditional' Indian way of doing things. "It's much better," Monami told me, "because when I marry, I will know myself and will be happy. That will make my husband happy. I will marry for love, not for business."

Going Home with Maggie

2008-07-15T03:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I was feeling very ill. I am yet to have a stomach issue here, but I think I have come down with bronchitis or something of the like in my lungs. Its difficult, the weather is always shifting between hot and rainy/damp. For those not used to such back-and-forth, the results are undoubtably colds. This cough, however, sits in the lungs, so I can't help but wonder if it is more than a mere cold (stupid weak immune-system!). Right, so, I skipped church and shopping (for the French Bastille Day party tonight... I have absolutely NOTHING to wear!) in order to sleep and hopefully overcome this attach on my poor foreign body (If I miss this party, I'm going to be seriously bummed...). But Maggie (a BC student and friend of mine that I have mentioned in previous posts) had invited me to her home for her father's birthday party, so I really couldn't bail on that.

It was lovely! Her father is the pastor of a large CNI congregation in Kolkata and was on a hospital call when we arrived at their house. As soon as he came home, we cut the cake and he started telling us stories of when he was a student at Bishop's College before the union of CNI ("It was a very strict Anglican seminary, and my friends and I used to sneak out at night to go to the cinema. In those days, not even female family members were allowed on campus!") I wanted to ask him how he felt about Maggie being a B.D. student at Bishop's College now, but just as an opportunity came, Maggie's aunt arrived.

Maggie's aunt is basically the definition of fabulous! She is a teacher at a Christian school in Kolkata, was educated abroad, and knows more about the Bible than most minsters that I have known. she is witty and intelligent and utterly charming. We talked theories about how the John's account of the Gospel and the Epistle attributed to John could be penned by the same author (or not, as the scholars currently claim): "If I were writing the Gospel of the Lord, I would make sure that my Greek was fantastic! If I were merely writing a letter to myself, I would not care about the quality of my Greek prose..." We laughed a lot at that one. I really enjoyed the conversation with Maggie's ant. She is a hilarious and incredibly sincere woman. It is always lovely to spend some time with women who are the type of woman that I hope to be someday.

Monsoon Storming

2008-07-15T03:02:00.000-07:00

Last night there was a huge thunderstorm. It was the monsoon season in full glory. At several points, the lightening struck and thunder sounded simultaneously, right outside of my window. The electricity was out for the entire morning all over campus, and from the sounds of the honking outside the College's walls, I would guess that the traffic lights were also out.

By no means did I sleep through the pyrotechnics of last night, but I did find the sounds of rain pounding against my windows and thunder crashing across the sky comforting. It reminded me of home -- Oklahoma home -- during tornado season (my favorite time of the year). Once I had gone to college in Massachusetts, I began missing the more spectacular weeks in tornado alley due to pesky spring semester exams; and while Chicago and Indianapolis boast their fair share of storms every spring, they hardly compare to the magnificence of Oklahoma's tornado season. Last night, however, was totally terrifying and thoroughly thrilling, just as a storm should be.

A night that would usually force small children into the comforting warmth of their parents' bed was one of the most relaxing of my nights here. The sounds were familiar, the power-outage expected. A monsoon storm is something about India that I am fully capable of dealing with!

Finally! Lodging!

2008-07-10T22:23:00.000-07:00

Well, I have moved onto the Bishop's College campus -- finally! It is really lovely having a more permanent place (I will be living here until mid-August, when I will return to the Delhi area for my last 10 days). My bed is beautifully comfortable, by comparison, because I have stacked two mattresses onto the wooden frame (I don't wake up desperately sore anymore!). It is one large room with a small dining table and four chairs, two big comfy chairs, a coffee table, a bureau, and a beautifully old standing mirror. The floor is bright red, the walks sky blue, the shudders crayola-crayon green, and the ceiling is white with yellow accents. The ceiling is incredibly high, and the floor space large, giving the room a feeling of airiness and space. The kitchen is small, but I have a gas stove (the kind where the two burners sit on a table and are linked by a hose to a tank of the floor... I'm seriously 'roughing' it here, folks!). This all means that I can now boil my own water for brushing my teeth! My favorite part of the room, however, is my bright pink floral mosquito net! I finally have the princess canape bed that I always wanted as a little girl!

Nothing about the guest house is shiny and new, but it is my exotic home for the next five weeks. I even washed three loads of laundry in a bucket in the bathroom yesterday and have utilized my mosquito-net line as my clothes dryer during the day. I still find the shower situation odd, but I simply appreciate my day dreams about showering at the Hilton near the airport on my final night in India all the more (only 7 more weeks until I get hot water!)...

Honestly, sometimes I wish I were sitting in my parents' air-conditioned living room drinking a cold Diet Dr. Pepper (with ICE!!!!!) and watching 'So You Think You Can Dance' on Fox, but then I smell the intoxicating aroma of curries drifting form the Mess Hall and wander outside to watch the seminary men play cricket. I remember that I am in Kolkata, India, and am so utterly blessed to be having this experience... I wouldn't trade it for a lifetime supply of Diet Dr. Pepper and lovely, lovely air-conditioning!

Lunch in the BC Mess

2008-07-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

I sat down for lunch at the Bishop's College Mess Hall, prepared for my obligatory food conversation with every India before any meal. It goes a little something like this:

Indian: Oh... you are eating our food?
Me: Yes.
Indian: Are you certain that you can eat the food?
Me: Yes. I love Indian food.
Indian: So you enjoy Indian food. It is very spicy. You do not have stomach problems from the spices?
Me: No. I eat a lot of Indian food in the States, plus I grew up near Mexico and am used to spicy food.
Indian: Oh. So you are accustomed to spicy foods. Do you like our rice, then?
Me: Yes...

and so the conversation continues... usually we turn to the fact that I should not drink the water here... Yes, I have become quite good at brushing my teeth with bottled water! It is very impressive to watch!

Right, so I sit down to eat lunch, have the food conversation with two different people who sat down at the table at different times, then start talking Church with my friend Maggie (a first year B.D., which is like our M.Div, and an oldest-child minister's daughter... no wonder we're friends!). Maggie began to complain that there are no 'lady priests' in the Kolkata diocese of CNI. There were a few in other regions, but none in Kolkata and certainly no female bishops! I asked what she thought the reason for that was (since there is no official policy against ordaining women), and another student answered. "In India," he explained, "women stay in the home mostly, and it is very difficult for them to leave the household. Also, in most countries, the churches are controlled by men (ain't that the truth! ... Bethany's inner monologue), so it is difficult for the women to become priests. They are scared to try..." Maggie responded with, "It is so stupid!" She is going to become a priest, no doubt.

I told them about my own seminary experience, where there are many more men than women at UC (I even had a class last quarter in which I was the only female in the classroom!). It is still not easy to be a 'lady priest', but it is possible. In fact, women are 'bishops' in my denomination, and we have even elected a woman as the GMP (General Minister & President, for those of you non-Disciples reading)! They all thought that was really cool, but I looked at Maggie and found myself in complete awe of her. She is so spunky and completely willing to take on the church to answer a calling to ordained ministry. I am not sure what I would do if I were in her position, and I am very grateful that I do not have the fight ahead of me for ordination that she does. The Disciples women pastors have fought that battle for me, several decades ago. Certainly, it is not perfect, everybody knows that the 30-something, wife who can play the piano, adorable young children, white male pastor is still the ideal for many congregations these days... but things are getting better for those who don't have the exact specs listed above in ministry. I feel really blessed to have so many amazing Disciples women as role models for ministry in my family (I include both grandmothers, my aunts, and my mother in that). I was even dedicated in the morning of my mother's afternoon ordination in 1984!

I won't have the struggle that Maggie has in store to answer my calling to ministry... I have such respect for her and for all the women who have gone before me to make my load slightly easier to bear. Thank you.

Bengali Worship at Duff Church

2008-07-07T04:00:00.000-07:00

So I went to Duff Church yesterday morning. I met the pastor at the Dalit Bible Commentary release party earlier in the week, and he invited me to come. I knew when I went that is was another Church of Scotland-founded CNI congregation, so I was a little worried about not visiting a differently oriented service this week from last. I shouldn't have been. The congregation is Bengali at Duff Church, and the entire service was in the Bengali language! I certainly did not understand what was being said, but I was able to follow the basic movement of the service for the most part. Even the hymns were in Bengali, though a few were merely translations of familiar English hymns (so I sung along in my head with those).

Also, the Bishop of CNI-Kolkata was there to preach. He spoke for 50 minutes (which was absolutely painful, since I couldn't understand a word he was saying... maybe I should learn Bengali...). While the message was lost to me, he was very animated in his delivery. I wish I had known if the content matched the presentation. In fact, I was quite shocked to find that he was so engaging a preacher, because his speech at the book release was quite dull. I wonder if it was a difference in task or a difference in language that compelled the transformation. Sunday was a communion Sunday as well. I was happy to have it, but missed hearing the familiar Words of Institution. I hope the church in Mungeli has communion every Sunday, so I can be fed by the spirit of a good-old Disciples' Lord's Supper.

I am hungry for it! Overall, the music was the high point of the Duff Church service (I know, totally shocking that I would feel that way!). The instrument was an odd combo of a keyboard and accordion, but it was stationary (I should do some sleuthing and find the name). It was way cool! Plus, the singing was beautiful! I love the different note combinations in Indian music. I know, usually, where Western music will go next (the note movements are so familiar), but Indian music is such a surprise! It makes me feel like a beginning music student again, and I had forgotten how much fun it is!

All in all, I really enjoyed the service, even though I didn't really understand the words. I guess that is probably how many Roman Catholics felt pre-Vatican II.

Only the One... Langugage

2008-07-07T03:57:00.000-07:00

Well, after having spent the weekend with my French friends and the various Indians they have befriended during their stays in Kolkata, I have realized the level of lameness present in my non-ability to actually speak any of the languages I have studied. It is really unfortunate that I have lost most of my French-speaking capabilities. All of my friends here speak at least English in addition to their own tongue, but usually they speak another one or two! I feel pretty lame having only basic reading abilities in French (after 7+ years of study), really awful Italian, and Koine Greek reading skills... I HAVE to get back in the French classroom! Je suis tres pathetique!

CPI (M)

2008-07-07T03:45:00.000-07:00

I am currently living in the communist stronghold of India: West Bengal. The Communist Party of India (Marxist) has been in power here for many years. After Indian independence from British rule, it makes sense that land redistribution and fair wages would be an attractive political option for Indians left impoverished by colonialism. Yet, from the conversations I have had with many Bengalis, the Communist government has not done much for the broad citizenry since its move to power decades ago. There are so many poor living in horrific poverty, and the communist government does no more for them than any capitalist one would. In fact, I was just told yesterday that the city government of Kolkata has destroyed a huge slum community in the past five years for the 'beautification of the city.' 300,000 people were displaced and then moved outside the city to where there was no water or infrastructure to sustain life.

There are seriously problems in the US, I will admit that willingly, but I cannot help but find the hypocrisy of this communist government particularly frustrating. The poor, the proletariat if you will, is still lost to corruption and capitalist-looking financial policies of the government. The distribution of wealth is even worse here than the gaps in the US, and the government continues to pretend that it represents the impoverished (everybody knows in the States that government and big business often go hand in hand). Poor Karl, his legacy is one of corruption in the name of Marxism. But I suppose in a nation of caste, a true socialist structure would be difficult...

Happy Independence Day (USA!!!)

2008-07-03T22:08:00.000-07:00

Today is the Fourth of July. It's my favorite, non-Christmas holiday and I always seem to miss it! I suppose that which makes the 4th so great (the summer season) is what makes it easy to find myself overseas for the holiday. I love boating (Okies go to the lake for Independence Day), the fireworks, the BBQs, and being with both friends and family to celebrate. I am spending the 4th of July with a bunch of French friends. Klervie is heading back to Paris tomorrow, so we're having a Bon Voyage party for her. I suppose it is not quite the same as spending Thanksgiving of 2004 in London, but I find it ironic that I'm going to a French party in Kolkata for the American Independence Day. I have decided, though, for the sake of being patriotic, I will call them my "Freedom Friends" today, instead of my 'French friends'. That sounds tres magnifique!

Happy Fourth everybody!

Shout out to the Rs!

2008-07-03T21:59:00.000-07:00

Rosie called last night and it was lovely! I do admit that while I am really enjoying myself here, I get extremely lonely for my friends and family at home. Two weeks should not be enough to be so homesick (I've taken vacations longer than that!), but the extremity of this experience magnifies everything. I long to simply hear that about the mundane details of my loved ones' days (thanks Rob, again for your fantastic email the other day)... and yes, this is a not so subtle hint to say that I welcome emails! But I really do appreciate the little notes and messages that folks have sent along over the past few weeks. It make my day a little less monsoon-y to hear from the States. Traveling alone is difficult, even with new friends along the way. Steph, I have serious respect for what you've been doing for the past couple of years!

The Working Poor of Kolkata

2008-07-03T21:39:00.000-07:00

This morning I went with 'the Christians' to this workshop in one of Kolkata's slums. it was founded by a Swiss couple seven years ago and is a place where women form the slum come to be educated in English and the trade of sewing. The org -- called Connections -- takes used cotton saris and makes blankets, scarves and handbags. they also make greeting cards. It was so cool! This is a place where women can learn how to create an income for their families, while still staying close to their homes, chores, and children. There are approximately 30 women who come to the shop everyday, plus another 50 women who sew blankets from home (so they can care for small children as well). For a blanket, a woman receives 180 rupee in wages, which is roughly a day's hard labor for a man's day. Even two of the five managers are women who entered the program to learn sewing and have now advanced to management careers! One still lives on the outskirts of the slum even. We bought some of the beautiful creations; I got a blanket, three bags, two scarves, and 28 cards... all for approx. $52... I was really pleased to support such a cause, plus visiting the workshop was totally RAD!

Oh! We took a bicycle rickshaw from the Metro to the workshop.... a first time, and quite cool! The others found it rather terrifying, but I was loving it! It is the way of life here; and while it is a little like Cleopatra to be hanging out in a 'modern-day' chariot, being pulled by a man on a bicycle, it is better to put rupees in the hands of a struggling rickshaw diver than to fit the Western comfort-stereotype and take an "expensive" taxi.

It is rather funny, though, to realize that I am ready to fight with a cab driver over 20 or 30 rupee now. It is absolutely absurd to pay 50 rupee for a trip that with the meter should only cost 20. Just to give you a sense of what the exchange rate is here: 42 rupee equals one US dollar. 75 cents is not a lot, but the cabbies try to take advantage of people with white skin. You know you're adjusting to India when $1.25 is TOO MUCH for a taxi!

Lots of Random, but good, Stuff

2008-07-03T02:08:00.000-07:00

Well, today was an interesting day. I woke up at 7:15 am (yay!) and rushed to get to breakfast at BMS. They say that it takes 2 weeks to adjust to the jet lag, and its two weeks exactly! I then went to Bishop's College and didn't really get any work done... but I did have some good conversations about CNI and its structure with several of the theological students over chai tea. I really do think that I will be okay once I move into the college guest house. Right now, it is hard to be alone every night. The culture shock has manifested itself in loneliness. It is hard to not have anyone to talk to at the end of the day, so I usually just read or go to bed by 9 pm.

At 4 pm, I went to St. James Church (formerly Anglican, now CNI) for a book release ceremony. Three volumes of the new Dalit Bible Commentary were released in West Bengal. I am such a nerd, I got super-excited because I thought a man whose book on ecumenism I'm currently reading was there, but I had simply misheard the name (I'm still adjusting to Indian English). Anyway, it was a big deal, because this is (if I understood correctly) the first Bible commentary written for the Dalit perspective (Dalits are the 'untouchables' in the caste system). Of the 250-million Dalit in India, approximately 20-million are Christian (this is a HUGE difference in percentage within a single community than the roughly 1% of Indians, overall, who are Christians). The publication of this commentary series is not only a move forward in Indian religious scholarship and academia, it is incredibly important to the Dalit community in general. Time and time again, speakers acknowledged the liberating message of the Gospel for the Dalit... ours certainly is a religion for the oppressed peoples of the world, and I was present at a really ground-breaking moment in the history of the Gospel at work.

After dinner, Cecile and I went to Park Street to meet a few of her friends (2 French women and a Moroccan man). Youssef looks frighteningly like my cousin Spencer, so that kept throwing me off, but I had a lot of fun with them. They spoke a lot of French (that I could roughly follow some of the time), but they all speak English well too... there was a lot of translating for me (I know, after 7 years of French, it is absolutely pathetic that I was so rotten at understanding basic chatter... ah well, that's why I'm taking French again next year). We went to the Park Hotel (think the W or Hard Rock Hotels in the States) to listen to a cover band (they were singing "Black Velvet" when we walked in... I ABSOLUTELY LOVE American music cover bands in foreign countries!). Cecile and I both thought that the lead singer was cute, but then I've always secretly wanted to be a rock band's groupie (I guess it's not so secret anymore). Youssef asked if I like Metalica and I said 'they're okay.' He then tried to tell me that I was not a real American because Metalica 'represents America'. I informed him that Lynard Skynard represents America, and I loved THEM. He was not convinced, and I reminded him that the American (i.e. ME) would know better than the Moroccan (i.e. him) what constitutes 'America'. That's right cultural snobbery! I later met a British Indian who is in Kolkata to visit his Indian relatives for a month. He name is Ronnie and he asked me if I would 'fancy some tea sometime'. I told him to ring me, so we'll see if tea ever happens. He's not exactly a 'Barrister-type' like I predicted, but I totally told Vince that were I to get engaged in India, it would be to a Brit who was here visiting his Indian relatives! I'm soooo good at calling this stuff! Anywho... he's got a great accent, and it's a hilarious story to tell!

Lastly, they moved me to a new room at SCEPTRE today (my temp housing until the guest house clears out at Bishop's College). This one is much smaller, but I got a sheet to cover myself with at nite!!!! So, I'm moving up in the world! Of course, the mattress in this room still has a plastic cover, so I feel like I'm sleeping in a 1960s 'nuclear' home each time I move! I'm not sure which is worse: no blanket, or plastic mattress wrap? I think that no blanket is much more pathetic, but the plastic mattress is down right annoying! Alas, such is my life in India!

Boo Solo Travel!

2008-06-30T22:20:00.000-07:00

My travel plans keep being destroyed. Darjeeling is in the midst of political unrest. They are protesting to have an independent state, because they feel neglected by the West Bengal government. There are common strikes and riots, and transportation in and out of the Darjeeling region is regularly barred. Independence has never come easy, and violence often accompanies the struggles. Even if I should make it to Darjeeling, there is little guarantee that I could get out in time to make it home! I was also told at breakfast by two nuns who are from Darjeeling, that there have recently been two rapes and murders of women in Goa (one British and one Indian). Goa is the beautiful southern state to which tourists flock from all over the world when they visit India. The beaches are magnificent (so I'm told). I had planned to spend Independence Day there, but I am not interested in traveling there alone right now. I am very sad about that, because I was going to see the place of St. Francis Xavier is buried. Now I must decide where else to travel in India, since my itinerary is being disassembled due to bad travel advisories. At times like these, I am particularly annoyed that I am a lone young female traveling ALL BY MYSELF!!!! Anyone feel like flying to India and being my travel companion for the month of August? My grant pays for my hotel accommodations...

Entering the Land of Missionaries

2008-06-30T22:14:00.000-07:00

Missionaries are an interesting and unique breed of people. I have very much enjoyed spending time with the missionaries I have met during my meals at BMS. Margarete is one who brings with her the imagination of the missionaries of 100 years ago (but with a theology of contemporary pluralism). Perhaps it is simply because she speaks with her lovely British accent and knows India so well, but nevertheless I feel like I'm entering a lost world of missionary grandeur when we eat together in the evenings. I think about my mother as a woman roughly my age becoming a member of the Congolese Christian community, an identity that has never left her heart in these thirty years since her time there, and I think I have a new understanding of what that time meant in her life. Missionaries have a faithfulness about them, like that which I have only ever seen in the Rev. Mother in "The Sound of Music" or the Jesuit priests in "The Mission". This is not a film, however, these are real people who have given up a comfortable Western life to be God's instruments of love and hope in the places that imperialism and, now, capitalism have left behind and forgotten. I feel very blessed to know the missionaries I have met. There are none other on earth the same as they.

Argh

2008-06-30T22:10:00.000-07:00

Today was a hard day. First of all, it rained, no pored all day until just about the time that I was given my new umbrella... perfect timing. Plus, I horrifically misjudged my clothing options in an urban center, I am totally wrongly dressed as a young woman in Kolkata (and let's be honest, it is VERY problematic that I would be out of current fashion). At the college, everyone wears jeans most of the time,. My light and breezy pants are now splattered in mud, and my mediocre attempts to hand wash my landry does little to counteract the stains from setting. I think I'm going to try and die them darker, and I'm having jeans sent to me form the US (thanks Mom!). So, I'm soggy from the rain all day and totally exhausted from being woken up (again!) at 4 am by the mosque down the road. I think the prayers sound really cool, but something tells me that loud-speakers pointed directly at Mother's House are probably not going to effectively convert the Missionaries of Charity to Islam.

Reflections on a Great Day

2008-06-29T22:29:00.000-07:00

Today is a monsoon day. Usually, there are little showers that leave the streets wet, but that clears up after 15 or 20 minutes. Today will not be one of those days. Unfortunately, I do not yet have an umbrella (because I've been lazy and am paying for it now...) Good news is that I will only to to walk the 2 km distance between my lodgings and Bishop's College twice before I receive the lovely gift of an umbrella at lunch from Margaret (the mother half of 'Ann Margaret'). Maybe today is a taxi day as well...

Yesterday was wonderful all around, though, so I can deal with the dreariness of today. At breakfast, Sissy -- or Cecile -- mentioned that she wanted to go to the cinema, but not alone. I volunteered to go with her after church and we tried to exchange mobile numbers. Unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately), I discovered that my cell was not working (I'll continue with that thread later). We asked Margaret if Ann wanted to come, and we all agreed to meet at noon to decide on a film.

I then walked up to the college to meet the Caleb family for church. We went to St. Andrew's Church, a former Church of Scotland congregation, now CNI. It's a beautiful building (with A/C!!!!), but membership is dwindling. People no longer live in the area and only the truly faithful (to the congregation... no questions of Christian faithfulness implied here...) make the commute. A funny story about St. Andrew's:

The Scottish founder of St. Andrew's came to Kolkata on the same bot as the Kolkata bishop of the Church of England. The Anglican bishop told the Scot that he could build a Presbyterian church in Kolkata, as long as its steeple was not taller than that of the Church of England's. The Presbyterian minister agreed, then went on to build a taller steeple... but he did not finish with that insult. No. He placed a giant rooster at the top of the steeple to 'crow' at the Anglican church below. Now St. Andrew's is locally known as the 'Cock Church of Kolkata'.

Ah... I do love me a good Church of England/Church of Scotland confrontation story! Especially when the Scots get the last word! The best part of the story in my opinion, though, is the fact that the two churches are now united in CNI over 100 years later! Seriously, this denomination is sooooo cool!

So, worship itself was heavily Church of Scotland. We even used the Church of Scotland worship book rather than the CNI Book of Worship. Dr. Caleb told me that each congregation of CNI retains its own worship autonomy pretty much, while the property is all owned by the denomination (which is sort of the opposite from the Disciples way of doing things, insofar as there are certain pieces that are commonly found among DOC worship services, but the congregation ALWAYS owns its own land).

After church, Dr. Caleb's oldest daughter Ruth (just starting grade 11) took me to the imported food store (peanut butter, pasta, and Pringles!! YAY!!!) and then by the mobile shop. THIS was a hoot! We walk in and have to identify my mobile number and problem on a central computer. I am then given a number on a printed out sheet of paper (my number was 'ONE') and we were ushered to the waiting area. There was no other customer in the store... and there were at least six open counters... and I was given a number and asked to wait. Ruth and I were cracking up at how totally absurd the whole thing was! After about a 3-minute wait, my number -- 'ONE' -- was called. It turns out that my phone store did not process all the necessary documents and my service was suspended until they went through. Now, just to give you an idea of what we need as documentation to purchase a cell phone in India: a copy of one's passport, a copy of the American address page, a copy of the Indian visa page, a passport photo, and a letter from one's place of Indian residence affirming the length of stay in India. Seriously, I felt like I was being processed by the Department of Homeland Security to get a mobile! Interesting experience indeed. So, hopefully bu the end of today, my phone will be back on...

I returned to BMS to meet Sissy and Ann for the film. We decided to see "Get Smart" at 2:55 (I was soooo bummed to be missing it over the summer, but I am STOKED to have a decent number of 'English' films to choose from in Kolkata) at the Forum mall. We had lunch at the food court, did a little bit of window shopping, and then went to the movies (I won't get started on the concessions area, because I'll talk on this for HOURS... its soooooo cool!). I highly recommend "Get Smart" to everyone! I loved the TV show as a kid, so I had VERY high expectations going into the film. It lived up to everything! And my love of the movie had very little to do with the fact that I've found a place in Kolkata where I can sit in an air conditioned room for multiple hours and be entertained.

After the movie, I went back to Bishop's College for evening chapel. It was the first chapel service of the academic term (they're just starting today, I think), so different groups from the various languages represented at the College sang special music in their own tongue. It was a really cool experience, because each had its own flavor, and I was able to get a sense of the vast diversity here on campus. The service itself was very Anglican (tho we sang from the old Methodist hymnal) overall, which was an odd sensory reality as we all removed our shoes and most of the congregation was seated on the floor... they insisted that I, of course, sit in one of the few chairs reserved for the elderly, faculty, and special guests (I insisted, today, that I should sit on the floor with the students).

After chapel, I went to Dr. Caleb's home for dinner. We had hot dogs, a goolash-y dish, green beans, and potatoes. They usually have a simple 'Western' meal on Sunday evenings. I loved it! We talked about the city and a lot about the foreigners who come to 'Mother's House' to do charity work. Ruth explained the Indian (private Christian) school system to me, and I told her about the American system. I really enjoyed myself. It was dark by the time we were finished, so Dr. Caleb insisted that two male students take me home. I feel bad for the poor students who just happen to be walking around campus when its time for me to leave, because Dr. Caleb just calls their name and asks if they can escort me home. They always say 'of course', of course, but I do wonder what is being put on hold for the 30 minutes it takes to deliver the American package safely home. It will be nice to be living on campus by the end of the week. This won't have to continue... I feel so badly about it (though I am grateful for the kindness they are showing me).

I had them deliver me to BMS where folks were gathering for Domino's pizza. GLORIOUS! I only had half a slice, because I had already eaten dinner with the Calebs, but it was totally worth being stuffed! I think the pizza is better here than in the States... it was at least the PERFECT end to the day!

Meals at the BMS

2008-06-28T02:31:00.001-07:00

Meals at the Baptist Missionary Society of Kolkata are experiences unlike any others I expect to have in India this summer...

Mary, the cook, is a silent Muslim woman who cooks the most glorious beef (we had a real British dinner of beef, mashed potatoes, and boiled cabbage the other evening, which was utterly divine!). She doesn't speak much, but always smiles radiantly when we express how much we enjoyed the meal.

Margarete is like the knowledgeable old squaw of BMS (to use an Oklahoma illusion). She is a retired school teacher who spends six months here and six months in the UK each year. Margarete creates the ere of an old colonial missionary (simply by her accent, not her theology). She is my favorite part of the day.

"Leslie's Group" (names have been changed to protect the faithful) consists of five Americans (2 women, one man, and a mother/13-year old daughter duo) who are of no denominational tie: they are 'Children of God'. I call them 'the Christians'. They are here for a month to help the poor in whichever way "God puts it on [their] hearts to do". At first, I found their wide-eyed Christianity annoying; I sensed their judgment as I proudly proclaimed "I am a Disciple of Christ!" and then passed on their offer to join 'nightly devotionals and praise' (disclaimer: the two clauses of this last part have nothing to do with one another... many Disciples love devotionals and praising... I just happened to decline their invitation shortly after affirming my happy denominationalism). But, as my mother suggested last night: the Red River only divides when we're in Oklahoma and Texas; everywhere else, we are happily known as cow and oil-folk (of Texahoma, as my Texan native friend Kaylon and I love to joke). I now look forward to dining with 'the Christians' each morning and night (plus, I don't know that they were ever actually judging me). Margaret is always the 'Mommy', concerned about whether Ann feels well (yes, they are 'Ann Margaret'... well, they are a cool combo of another Hollywood movie star, but the names have been changed, remember). Dennis, who should be a serious thug with his heavy Boston accent, has already befriended a community of Indian recovering alcoholics after stumbling across an AA meeting on the group's first night in Kolkata. Leslie chats with any new person at each meal, and Abbey confided in me that she stopped her intense nightmares by reading Scripture before bed this was after I explained about my recurring zombie dreams and thus not taking the psychotic malaria meds). They are very kind, and somewhat humbling in their earnest awe of God.

Sissy is a quiet, 20-year old French woman from Lyons. She is in Kolkata for four months doing an internship with an Indian NGO as part of her higher education... talk about a serious sweet heart! This woman is so nice, a little uncertain about the Godliness of 'the Christians', and is as beautifully French as anyone could imagine.

Then there is me, Bethany, the 24-year old theology student... here to do research on the Church of North India. We are all white, Western, and long for the occasional non-curried meal; but we are, beyond that, a motley crew indeed.

Touch at 3 am

2008-06-28T02:17:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 3:30 again this morning. It is difficult, once awake to coax myself back to sleep. The beds are little more than a wooden frame with a thin mattress on top. Forget box springs or anything else that could increase snoozing comfort! Now, lets keep in mind that I am the girl who sleeps atop a feather mattress liner with no less than four luscious pillows meticulously placed for optimum sleeping comfort (yes, I am the Princess & the Pea). In my current lodging, there is one sheet covering the mattress and one pillow. I have no sheet or blanket with which to cover myself. My bones ache from hours of lying on the slightly padded wooden bed... no wonder I am awake around 4 am most mornings! I wonder if the Missionaries of Charity (Mother Teresa's order) have blankets next door... still, my coverless bed is not the street outside.

I pass so many people lying on ragged blankets along the sidewalks. As I approach, i pray that they are sleeping: partly so that unconsciousness may ease whatever physical pain they are experiencing, and partly so that I do not have to go to extremes to 'ignore' their plea for a rupee (which is roughly 2.5 cents US).

I noticed yesterday that I had not been touched (besides a greeting handshake) in days... since Dan and i greeted one another 'hello' with a hug inside the Western-catering Imperial Hotel in Delhi. I came to this realization as I brushed by a disabled woman sitting on the street. I 'ignored' her rupee request, but felt a tingle run through my arm as she lightly touched it. My body was shocked my the gentle graze, and I found myself wishing that the contact had been longer. Funny, that. Depressing, that.

I then thought of Margarete, the retired UK teacher and Baptist missionary who spends 6 months a year in Kolkata working in the infant room of a daycare for street children. She spends her days holding small children while their mothers attend classes on home economics and basic hygiene. I am both envious and frightened of the affection she must receive there; I find myself desiring it more than fearing it today.

As I continued walked, I saw to Sisters walking together, in their familiar blue and white sari-esque uniforms. I thought of 'Mother' (Mother Teresa is simply 'Mother' here) and a story came to mind that I heard a couple of years ago. She came across a man covered in infection and maggots. The volunteer with her asked if he should find a doctor, and Mother said 'no', a doctor would be of no help. She then leaned down, next to the man, and took his hand for a moment before beginning to suck the maggots and infection from his wounds. This man was going to die -- no matter what -- but Mother was going to do the one thing she could do to ease his pain in the mean time. She took his hand first. She touched him before getting to her work. I wonder how many lives have been affected by the kindness of her touch...

In Honor of Patti

2008-06-28T02:01:00.000-07:00

A quick word on what brought me to India in the first place:

The University of Chicago Divinity School (where I have just completed my second year in the M.Div program) just began a new grant program for first and second year ministry students to spend 10 weeks engaged in an international ministry project. I am one of two students who received the grant for this summer: Matthew (a classmate of mine) is in Kenya studying the development of Kenyan Bible colleges (founded and independently run by local Christians to train their leaders), and I am in India studying the Christian unity denomination of the Church of North India (the Disciples of Christ were one of the six main-line denominations that unified to become CNI in the early 1970s). The basic idea is to look at this unique denomination to better understand the ecumenical inspirations that led to a unification movement in the first place and then to see how CNI Christians have understood themselves in the 40(ish) years since uniting.

So the questions left are: why CNI? and Why India in the first place? I'll begin by answering the latter, then the former. When I first decided to apply for this grant, I wanted to go someplace where I could work on my French. I thought maybe working with African immigrants and refugees in Parish could be the ticket, and Cynthia (the director of the UC ministry program) quickly squashed at dream. "You've done the Europe thing before," she told me. "You should use this opportunity to stretch yourself. Go to a developing country. How about Congo?" Ah, Congo, the place where my mother (at 22) realized her calling to ministry. I absolutely love and respect my mother; I look up to her personally and professionally, but I have spent the past two years fighting to create my own ministry path that is different from my mother's. Congo was out. "How about Haiti?" Cynthia suggested. Nope. My folks had visited there last year... maybe Morocco. I went to bed thinking about finding a developing, french-speaking country with no specific ties to my parents; I woke up the next morning certain that it had to be a summer in India.

I immediately logged onto the Global Ministries website to start looking at where Disciples had partnerships in India (I am such a well-trained Disciple!), and the Church of North India sounded perfect! It's a unique form of ecumenism (which, being the good Stone-Campbellite that I am, I love!). Plus, Disciples have long been present as co-founders and then partners of CNI. This was it!

I emailed Global Ministries and Vijay put me in touch with Dr. Sunil Caleb (a former student of Vijay's and the current principle of CNI's Bishop's College in Kolkata... also, if Ben Dueholm were a late-30s Indian man, he would be Sunil Caleb... fawesome!) Vijay also connected me with the General Secretary of CNI (in Delhi) and the director of the Mungeli hospital (founded by Disciples and now part of the CNI structure). I have already been to Delhi and will visit Mungeli in late July. For the next month, I am at Bishop's College, using their library and practically living in the archives (I am such a history nerd!).

The basic idea is to spend 10 weeks learning about CNI's history that brought it to unity and to get a sense of how things have developed in the years since. Thus, my summer in India! I am very excited to be here and learn about CNI. During my week at the headquarters I met with some very outstanding people, heard about their work, and was filled in on much of the Church gossip and politics (Christ isn't the only universal aspect of the Church!). There are also several places that had not originally been on my study itinerary, but that I had wanted to visit as a tourist that are diocese hubs for CNI; so, I will be able to incorporate my studies with my tourism to their places and spend more time there! I'm not 100 into providence, but I am beginning to believe that it just might exist on this trip!

Monsoon Days

2008-06-28T01:55:00.000-07:00

It rains here, sporadically throughout the day. It's monsoon season. Everything is damp and sticky, which makes me want to sleep often and all day long! My time adjustment is still struggling to normalize, and I wonder if I will ever again sleep past 5 am. It is difficult, though since I am retired to my sleeping quarters by 9 am each night as I (keeping my mother in mind) try not to be out much after dark. I am asleep by 10 pm, simply because there is nothing left for me to do except read, and I'm working my way quickly through everything I've brought with me. The mosquitoes keep me company at night, unwelcomed companions that they are... I can barely tell the odor of insect repellent anymore, since it has become my obligatory perfume of choice. I was informed today by Margarete -- the British Baptist missionary with whom I dine in the evenings -- that UK physicians do not prescribe my kind of malaria medication for Asia (only Africa), since the strand is slightly different here. Perfect. Not only am accosted by mosquitoes and am running low on my meds (thank you Walgreens for not filling the entire prescription), what I do have may prove unsuccessful in warding off malaria. I am tired, cannot stop yawning. Perhaps I'll take a nap soon... the monsoon invites such a lazy day...

Kolkata, Day One

2008-06-26T21:41:00.000-07:00

pre-script note: For those of you who know me somewhat well (ok, who am I kidding, for those of you who have met me for like five minutes), you will not be surprised to learn that traveling alone through India is socially difficult for me. While I do have minor-interactions with English speaking persons throughout each day (the folks at Bishop's College are absolutely WONDERFUL in making me feel welcomed here), I retire to my lonesome room around 8 pm and have only my books and my journaling to keep me company. Therefore, I am obsessively writing blog posts in my notebook as a way of externally processing this experience. Please forgive (or enjoy!) the occasional multi-post days. Sometimes it'll get a little bit crazy (like today's three posts). Cheers! ~B

I arrived in Kolkata (formerly known by the British as Calcutta) this morning. After an enchanting 6 am flight (see 'An Ode to Jet Airways' below), I exited the plane to an intense wall of heat and humidity. I have air conditioning for the next few nights, but after that, I'll be showering about four times a day! Speaking of showers, I am still unclear as to how exactly one showers in India if one is not staying in a lovely hotel that caters to American sensibilities (they even have bathtubs!). There is a faucet (sometimes a 'geyser' above-head) sticking out of the wall and a large bucket with a smaller measuring cup-like thing. The drain can be anywhere along the bathroom floor or wall, and that's pretty much it. Now, I spent a summer counseling church camp, so I do not demand much by the way of showering... except, perhaps, that I can figure out how to do it! Right, so the showers... hopefully they'll make sense to me by the time I leave.

West Bengal, or at least Kolkata, has a very different feel from Delhi. The former capital of British India, the city is overcrowded and indescribably impoverished. Still, it gives off a more manageable vibe than did Delhi; its character is charming, rather than overwhelming. Perhaps the differences between Delhi and Kolkata is similar to New York City vs. Boston or Philly (for the tourist experience... I LOVE NYC personally). All the cars are older and more abused in Kolkata, but hte colors are more vibrant. The taxis are bright yellow, creating a fiesta for the eyes against a backdrop of rainbowed saris hanging from windows along every building.

Everywhere I looked (on the bright yellow taxi-ride to Bishop's College, my place of residence for the next month and a half) men and children were stooped next to overflowing water geysers (no the showers, rather hydrant-like showers bubbling from the ground). They were brushing teeth, bathing, or perhaps simply enjoying the short-lived relief from the mid-morning heat. The streets are lined with fresh fruits, flowers, goats and the random city cow (enjoying every minute of their 'sacred' status within the country). Even the dogs seem more like the lovable pets from home than the nightmarish animals of Delhi.

Of course the poverty is just-as (if not more) consuming in Kolkata. We drove along street after street of shack communities. Even the standing buildings are in such a state of disrepair that I cannot imagine that they were ever clean and new. Men sleep in the shade of their (foot-drawn) rickshaws. Adolescent boys take on back-breaking labor that grown men would find difficult to bear. I wonder to myself how it is that anyone can stand living such a life of 'sweat-street' labor, garbage-constructed shelters and overwhelming heat each day. There isn't even the luxury of escaping into a romance novel to ease the realities of life (though I did see a street-dweller reading a news paper this morning while drinking a chai...). But, even within the desperation, I watched little boys playing in the water, teenage girls gossiping on their way home from school, and aging men arguing the way only old friends do. Perhaps I'm idealizing the streets of Kolkata because I am so pleased to be away from Delhi, but I really did sense that the poor of this city seem more willing to smile despite their given lot.

However, in addition to smiling, the people of Kolkata seem more willing to blatantly stare. One woman nearly feel out of the bus window, trying to keep me in eye-sight as long as possible along the busy street. Taxi drivers pulled their cabs along side ours so that they could oggle the Western woman. I am even less-inclined, upon arriving in Kolkata, to believe Mr. 'You look Indian' Man, because even in the back seat of a taxi cab (and wearing Indian garb), I am so obviously "not from around here". I wonder if it will ever calm down... probably not, as I will stay 'white' regardless of how much time I have spent in India. No hope for a convincing tan, I suppose... alas.

p.s. Patti, as per your request, I will soon post a little piece on what brought me to India in the first place. As I am now in Kolkata (and near my library), I will be writing more about the Church of North India as my research can really begin to take form.

An Ode to Jet Airways

2008-06-26T21:36:00.000-07:00

Oh, Jet Airways --
You cheap-fared lady of the Indian skies,
You offer isle seats and cool towels on an early-morning flight.
You serve breakfast (veg or non-veg) in REAL dishes, with non-plastic forks, knives and spoons!
Even the linens (yes! ACTUAL CLOTH LINENS!) are tied with a delightful blue satin chord!
The orange juice is freshly squeezed from citrus, ripened and luscious fruit of the monsoon...
Oh, Jet Airways,
my beloved,
I am so happy to share begin my day with you!

Oh, yes, I look Indian!

2008-06-26T21:19:00.000-07:00

I was told today that I "looked Indian" by a man who passed me in the park... I found his claim unconvincing, as he clearly noticed well enough that I was not in fact Indian to warrant saying something to me in the first place. Of course, in the spirit of reading everything charitably (thank you Prof. Hector), he may simply be a man who constantly informs random Indian women of their 'Indian' looks... I am sure that is it!

I think one of the most striking pieces of being here (honestly, most things are striking about India, but this is the one thing I am discussing in this post) is the "homogeneous" national 'look'. Now, I understand that there is very little ACTUALLY 'homogeneous' about Indian (including the diversity of 'look' which is why I chose scare-quotes), but one can certainly tell foreigners without much difficulty. We present ourselves as soon as we walk off the plane, our non-Indian ancestry the tale-tell fanny-packs of our tourist identities.

Certainly, one can roughly guess from which part of Europe one hails by her bone structure and coloring; but with centuries of conquering and various empire-shifts, there is less certainty of a person's nationality than his aesthetic might imply.

Of course, America is the worst (best?) for messing with someone's visual interpretation of nationality. We are the land of immigrants, religious zealots, and slavery; we have, for 200+ years, welcomed "the huddled masses yearning to breathe free" (as well as forcibly deposited many cultures to serve as our under/never-paid work force). The beauty of America -- side-stepping intrinsic racism for two seconds as I finish this blog entry -- is that no one can assume anything about nation-of-origin until a person opens her mouth to speak.

Not so in India. The color of my complexion is a neon sign (not to be confused with my ALWAYS glow-in-the-dark Irish paleness) that constantly flashes "Look! Not Indian! Foreigner! Go ahead, stare!"

So, Mr. Guy in the Park: I do not believe you that I look Indian. My salwar kameez is not enough to hide my Western-ness. I could maybe pull-off Canadian... but no one is going to believe that I am anything more than a fashionably sensitive North American.

Two New Friends, Saint Matthew... and an Indian 'Boyfriend'

2008-06-25T03:02:00.001-07:00

My first morning at breakfast in the CNI headquarters, I met a man by the surname Mohandass and his 15-ish year old son (braces and all). Mr. Mohandass was in Delhi because he had been charged with accompanying the Delhi-bound students from the Hebron International School in Tamil Nadu (one of the Southern states in India). He is the caterer there and the first truly smiling face that I had encountered at that point (besides the absolutely endearing, non-English speaking kitchen and security staff at CNI... I guess Mr. Mohandass, then, was the first smiling English-speaking face I had seen). He invited me to visit their small southern town of Nilgiris, and I think I just may. Get a small taste of the Church of South India while I'm there. Mr. Mohandass and his son were off to see the Taj that morning, so I bid them farewell and hoped to see them again. I caught them at breakfast this morning and we shook hands goodbye. They were able to get on the train back to Tamil Nadu today. I am sad to see them go.

I met the Rt. Rev. Naresh Ambala, Bishop of the Eastern Himalaya diocese of CNI. Bishop Ambala is a total hoot (in the greatest and most respectful sense of the world)! We ate breakfast together and he informed me that he was from Darjeeling (would I be traveling there at all?) I had just decided that morning -- in my sleep-deprived state when I found myself awake at 4 am yet again! -- to visit Darjeeling, which sits at the base of the Himalayas. He told me that he would be happy to be of service to me while in Darjeeling, and if he happened to be in the UK at Lambeth conference he would make certain that the Darjeeling pastor would be of help to me in his place. Of course, he said, I must allow them to 'be selfish' one day and show me the work that they are doing in the East Himalaya diocese. I told him THAT is the exact reason that I am in India this summer (I mean, Monsoon Season) and that I looked forward to seeing him in Darjeeling in August. Bishop Ambala then said, "I am sorry. I did not ask your name!" I told him 'Bethany' and he asked if it was for "the home of Mary and Martha". I said, 'yes', and explained that its Hebrew translation (my father being an OT professor, which the Bishop found very interesting) was roughly 'House of the Desperate' or 'Home of the Homeless'. I told him that my parents hoped that I would be a resting place for Jesus (the NT town) and also a place of refuge for those in need (Hebrew translation). He found it all very interesting, particularly since towns are only used as the surname in India. He had never known someone named for a town as their primary name before. Finally, Bishop Ambala told me of a collection of speeches I must read: Swami Vivekananda's Chicago Addresses (since I am a theology student in Chicago). He wrote down the book information for me on a card and again expressed his hope to see me in Darjeeling. I thanked him and looked down at the card: it was a subscription card for the Anglican Theological Review in Evanston, IL!!!! such a small world! I will have to email Jackie Winter (the editor of ATR, and someone I know through my favorite UC professor, K. Tanner)!!

So, those are my two friends from breakfast at CNI (I am sure that you will all be pleased to know that I have indeed made MORE than two friends since I drafted this post... worry not, the extrovert is still here... she just needed a few days to adjust to the culture shock).

After breakfast, I went to morning worship at CNI. Most of the service was in Hindi (except the Lord's Prayer was only recited in English). The room was filled with women (just like most American Christian services, good to know the trend is global...), and Bishop Ambala was decked out in full bishop splendor (I almost didn't recognize him). The director of the HIV/AIDS branch of CNI led worship and gave the message from Matthew 14 (Jesus walking on the water). "Do not be afraid!" were the first English words of the service. Ok... You've got my attention, God. "Do not be afraid!" Else you (BETHANY!), like Peter, might sink into the sea (the Indian monsoon). Thank you Saint Matthew. Apparently, my nervous attitude has caught the attention of the higher powers, and God decided to remind me: "DO NOT BE AFRAID!!!" Well, I decided to listen to good ol' St. Matt, and I ventured into Delhi (alone) shortly after worship was over. (Oh, did I mention that everyone takes off their shoes to enter the chapel, as if it were a temple? It is always interesting to see which pieces of a pre-evangelized culture translates into contemporary Christian practices).

Once in Delhi -- Cannaught Place again ... I'm branching, but not too much -- I went to the JetAirways office to purchase (in cash... argh! wallet!) my plane ticket to Kolkata for Thursday. There was a mis-communication, so I ended up buying a 6 am flight that no one can meet on the other end (Bishop's College is in the middle of faculty retreat this week during the day). I then found an internet cafe and promptly spent two hours surfing a very slow web (the post yesterday). For lunch I returned to the South Indian restaurant at which Dan and I ate on Sunday, and the waiter asked me about 'my friend'. I told him that Dan was on his way to Tibet and it was just me now (Dan! We're so memorable!). After eating, I decided to go to a bookstore to pick up Bishop Ambala's suggested reading. A man stopped me to speak English -- he seemed harmless enough... plus he was cute, in that late-30s kind-of-way. He offered to take me to a 'good English bookstore' and I decided to let him lead me through the crowded (VERY public and VERY daylit, Mom and Cynthia) outdoor shopping centre to the bookstore. Again, he seemed harmless enough and really only interested in practicing his English. To be honest, there were the occasional disapproving looks from older Indian women (we were a 'mixed' couple walking together) and the Indian men continued to stare, but walking with this man MAJORLY cut down on the amount of general harassment... which was nice. Go guy. After the fourth bookstore (he waited for me outside each one to make sure they had my book... none did), I started to wonder if he would ask me for cash at the end of this whole thing. No, no cash. He wanted a date. He had 'this feeling about us. Just a cup of coffee and conversation.' As tempting as his handsome looks and aging charm were, I declined his offer (after enlisting two friendly Auzzies to step in if things got out of hand at the final bookstore). When I told him no, he mumbled something and turned on his heels. Apparently his 'feeling' wasn't strong enough to warrant a gracious exit. My first Indian boyfriend... alas, if ended before it began. Vince, I am yet to follow in the footsteps of Peirce and John... no internationally inspired engagement yet... of course, I still have nine weeks left...

48 Hours In...

2008-06-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

Just a quick disclaimer: I haven't been able to get to a computer until today, so this is a post that I wrote in my room a few days ago, so its dated. I'll catch up to myself in the next couple of days, I'm sure... so enjoy!

I have now been in Delhi for 48 hours. 48 hours -- and already many stories to tell... I made my first major mistake before even exiting the plane, I left my wallet. I took it out to give my American coins to the UNICEF bag before we landed, and my charitable heart set me up! Luckily, there was only about $15, my student IDs (I'm very sad about my Irish immigration ID being sacrificed to the travel gods), and my VISA and debit cards. Nothing too valuable that cannot be replaced, except, perhaps, my pride. I had met a nice teacher from Oak Park in the customs line who took pity on me when I could not find anyone waiting for me from CNI (Church of North India). They told me the following day when I arrived at the headquarters that someone had been waiting until 1 am, but neither Karen (the teacher) nor I could find him. So, Karen, the loveliest person in the world, invited me to stay with her at her hotel, and I accepted. It was on the way to the hotel that I discovered my wallet was gone, and I preceded to freak out!!!! I called my mother, who had been delayed at the airport and thus actually able to answer my phone call (thank you Providence). Over the next few hours (the middle of the night in India), her assistant, Beth (who will forever be known in my heart as TOTALLY AWESOME AND WONDERFUL BETH) had gotten CNI phone numbers and wired me $500.

(side note: the man sitting next to my computer seriously has an AKON ring tone... this is great!)

That night I couldn't sleep, which was particularly unfortunate since I hadn't gotten any sleep my last night in the States or on the 15.5 hour plane ride from Chicago to Delhi (over Russia, go figure). Karen fell asleep quickly, so I spent most of the night reading in the bathroom.

I'd like to take a short detour from the thus-far unfortunate story of my arrival in India to talk about the book I've been reading. It is called "Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything across Italy, India, and Indonesia." Ever since I told my therapist about my trip this summer, she has been pushing me to read this book by Elizabeth Gilbert. It chronicle's "Liz's" year of self-discovery (four months in each place) after a very messy divorce (she was 24 when they married and 34 during this book). I thought my therapist wanted me to read it because I was traveling to India, but about half-way through the 2nd "book" (on India), I realized her REAL intentions in recommending the title: THIS WOMAN IS ME!!!!! I first read the wisdom (from the ancient Indian Yogic text The Bhagavad Gita): it is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. No kidding. I came to India (rather than my mother's beloved Congo, which had been in the running as I applied for this international travel grant) to be my own person in a developing country... and lost my wallet... talk about living an imperfect destiny! I suppose I will come to terms with this, eventually... though a huge part of me wishes I were in Congo right now: I would have much preferred the 3000-person procession that my parents received last month at the airport than my missed one-man 'welcome' committee. Alas, better to live out my own destiny imperfectly... There was another phrase the author used along the lines of her verbal 'tap-dancing' for social approval... but this is not a therapy session, it is a blog entry about my first two days in Delhi. I shall continue my tap-dance now...

I arrived at CNI and was given a room with a broken air conditioner (or so I thought for the first two days I was there, then I realized that one has to turn on the electricity outlet... I'm seriously not making this stupidity up, folks!!!... the AC works now, needless to say). The sheets are beautifully soft from age, and the 'shower' is no more than a faucet sticking out of the wall at about the waist (did I mention that I saw the LARGEST cockroach of my life in that bathroom?). So, my 'delicate' sensibilities are being beautifully tested already, thank you!

After lunch, I finally dozed into a lovely sleep and decided to ignore the dinner alarm. Just as well, since I couldn't handle hearing from one more person that there was indeed someone waiting for me at the airport the night before until 1 am! Around 9:30 pm, I received a knock on my door. It was the cook with a tray full of a GORGEOUS dinner (it was an hour and a half since the close of the kitchen, and they are very strict about eating hours at CNI headquarters). This was the turning point -- the kind gesture of a beater-wearing bearded cook who brought me a dinner tray of nan, mutton, fried veggies, and fresh cucumbers! I almost cried -- well, I did cry after I closed the door -- at his gesture of kindness! He brought me a tray of tea this (Sunday) morning as well... at 6:30 am (!)... luckily I am still adjusting to the time and had been awake since 4 am.

At 9, I left for church at CNI's 'Free Church' (a former Methodist congregation in Delhi). There was a group of Canadian Presbyterians there (students) who I talked to after worship. I must admit that church put me in a better mood, but I found myself envious of the Canadians and their three-week (only!) programmed 'study' trip of CNI. Oh to have a chaperon! The service itself was interesting. CNI has a Book of Worship, published on the denomination's 'Silver Anniversary' in 1995. The sermon was given by a layperson (which is totally awesome), and the hymns were 'standards' from the red Methodist hymnal ("Master Let Me Walk with Thee" was my favorite of the morning). There was even a 'youth' praise band who closed their 3-song contemporary selections with "Open the Eyes of My Heart, Lord". It was hard to tell if my fellow-worshippers were uncomfortable with my semi-evangelical, LaSalle-esque openned-to-the-heavens palms during this song... they are Methodist-bred, so I assume probably so. There was no communion, which I missed, but the service was very lovely and a welcomed time of much-needed extroversion (even if I only talked to the Canadians, it was something!).

When I introduced myself to the presbyter after church, he invited me to "offer the Message" in August when I return to Delhi before flying home to the States, since I am a theology student. I just may do that (if I get a little more brave by then). Of course, the most charming thing about this presbyter is that he broke into "Ooooooooklahoma" when I told him which state I was from (he went to theological school in Virginia, you see). I am happy to return to the 100-person congregation of semi-Methodist Church of North India Christians in August. It is the most comfortable I have been in India thus far.

After lunch, I met Dan McNamara (a friend from div school in Chicago, for those who don't know Danny Mc) at the Imperial Hotel for tea before we embarked on an afternoon excursion through Delhi. It was so wonderful to see a familiar face, and one who spoke some Hindi! Another small tangent (though this one is actually about India, not my overall existential well-being): I know that people are speaking English to me, and I know that I am speaking English back, but I am concerned that somehow we are not speaking the same language at all! I am certain that my ear will get better at deciphering the Indian-English dialect, but I am not convinced that I will ever be able to find a way to make myself understood in this country. Maybe it will be better in Kolkata (Calcutta), though I do not know why it would make a difference someplace else in the same country. Of course, there is a HUGE difference between the Scotish brogue and a British accent. Fingers crossed that Delhi doesn't equal the Brits in this scenario...!!!

Right, so tea with Dan... we met up around 3 pm at this fantastic hotel (http://www.theimperialindia.com/home.htm) and then proceeded to spend the afternoon walking around Delhi. "New" Delhi seems a little more maneuverable (there's a park at the center of things, to which I may return later in the week for people watching). "Old" Delhi was a trip. We got off the Metro and were in a different world... THIS was a world of overwhelming poverty. I have tried to prepare myself to be devastated, but to ignore the poverty in India (Westerners often freak out at first). Everyone I know says that a) you can't trust half the 'beggers' in Indian cities, and b) if you give to one, a crowd will surround you (no good situation at all!). Taking that into consideration, I have been able to outwardly ignore circumstances that would normally break my heart, a reality which breaks my heart in a different way. In "Old" Delhi, however, the dogs were the piece to finally overwhelm me. They turn my stomach, because I know that they are starving and sickly and will give me some deplorable disease myself if I so much as look at them too long. Then there is the smell of urine. It is more assaulting than the dogs and utterly grotesque. My eyes may be able to overlook the destitution here, but my nose refuses to ignore it. I felt sick to my stomach for the first time in "Old" Delhi, and I largely suspect that it was not the food finally catching up with me.

In "Old" Delhi, Dan and I visited a Sikh Temple. We removed our shoes, washed our feet, covered our heads, and made our way inside. A fantastic old Sikh guided us through, all the while Dan saying to me "I don't think this breaks any of the commandments" or "You don't have to do the kneeling if you don't feel comfortable with it." I waited until after we left to explain that respecting (by going through the motions of) another religion was not a problem for "my version" of Christianity. It was a beautiful temple, and I enjoyed listening to the reading of the Guru Granth Sahib (the sacred book of Sikhism). We sat -- I prayed -- for a while, then headed back to Connaught Place for dinner. We ate south Indian food at the Banana Leaf (very tasty), but we were both so incredibly beat by 7pm and decided to call it a night. We shook hands at the Metro (totally inappropriate to hug in Indian public) and said good-bye. My autorickshaw nearly got lost on the way home, but I managed to find CNI nevertheless.

To be honest, I am not certain whether I am better at ease or more terrified to venture into the city after having gone out with Dan... though here I am, sitting at a small internet cafe in Connaught Place, so I guess I made it out, and on my own, eventually (two days later!)